This.
I have stayed out of these threads thus far, because every time I think to type a post I fear I'm being too harsh but frankly you need to hear it again and again until it sinks in
you are having a BABY, raising a child. A living, breathing, thinking, future of our world CHILD. A child who you are ALREADY neglecting by not taking care of yourself and stressing over stuff that doesn't matter.
Who cares about this guy? Who cares about the girl? He left you, he said he didn't love you, he didn't call you from jail, he has CONSISTENTLY pushed you away.. I'm SHOCKED you are surprised by all this but more than that, I am shocked that THIS is what you are worrying about. It's like you care more about this stupid high school DRAMA with this guy over the baby you are growing inside of you!
You had your time to wallow. He has moved on, so should you.. if not for you than for the sake of your child.
Not eating is unacceptable and completely and totally selfish. This baby is INNOCENT in all this and depending on you. Everyone hates breakups, everyone gets sad and wants to wallow and cry... but your body and what you do to it is not just about you anymore! You need to GET IT TOGETHER AND GET HELP.
You are raising a child. You need to find a way to support yourself, a place to live, a plan, a job, a schedule, supplies.. You have MUCH bigger fish to fry than your stupid boyfriend and his garbage!
You are going be feeding, caring, loving, changing, and soothing this baby largely on your own. Being a single parent is a huge undertaking and you need to be ready.. START PREPARING. Make a list, start checking off things you need to do. STOP WALLOWING IN SELF PITY!
You need to grow up and start being a parent.. that means putting that baby's well being ABOVE your own.
and frankly if you can't get it together and BE READY for this child and get over this.. I think you need to think LONG AND HARD about if you are even ready to be a parent.