thanks guys. It's really hard. I cried for a while then put her in the car and drove to the park and walked around with her for about a half hour, just her and me.
She's going back to Auggie's breeder, so... if the right home for her doesn't come along, she can come back to me when I find a place of my own. This is even harder because I actually know I'm not the best home for her, she would do better in a quieter house, maybe as an only dog or at least with another dog who is not so obnoxious and pushy like Auggie is. There was actually another dog I really wanted about a year back and I never could get stuff in order, and now he lives with somebody else. He LOVES the girl who owns him now and she loves him, but I am sad that I never made it work so he could come here. I feel like the same thing will happen with Pepper. But it's probably for the best because I am not her "perfect" home.
My mom wasn't there to hear what my dad said when he said she was tired of her and she has to go, so at first she was saying Pepper should stay, don't worry yet, she won't be going... Then I told her exactly what my dad said and she gets it now. There is no changing his mind on this. He is done.
She also said maybe I can still play with her and stuff. When I take her back I will have to talk to Auggie's breeder about trying to figure something out. She is REALLY bonded to me which is what we were saying had to happen a loooooong time ago (I'm talking before she ever even came to visit) but I'm not sure if working with her for an hour once or twice a week is going to work out. We will just have to see what we can figure out. I still have doubts she will ever be a good trial dog, anyway, but I at least wanted to play with her...