She has to go back.
- Thread starter Beanie
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My heart just ripped into ten thousand shreds for you....
I can't even imagine. I am SO sorry, it isn't even fair. Right when you were
getting a real bond with her. And then to rip her away...
Is she attached to Aug's breeder in any way? You could giver her/him pointers on how you won her over and maybe they could bond and it wouldn't hurt so much since she could trust someone, anyone?
)))super-mega-hugs(((
I can't even imagine. I am SO sorry, it isn't even fair. Right when you were
getting a real bond with her. And then to rip her away...
Is she attached to Aug's breeder in any way? You could giver her/him pointers on how you won her over and maybe they could bond and it wouldn't hurt so much since she could trust someone, anyone?
)))super-mega-hugs(((
She has been with Auggie's breeder since she was a puppy, so she is definitely comfortable with her and the whole family. I took her back last night. At first she was afraid of her youngest boy (he's the taller one) and was hiding behind me. As soon as she realized who it was (i.e. not my dad) she was prancing around and going up to him and jumping on him.
I thought it was going to be bad - I thought she was going to be really upset that she wasn't coming with me. She only turned around once and stared at me with this look of confusion... then turned back around and kept going. I got in the car then so she couldn't keep looking for me, and watched in my rear view mirror, and she never turned around again.
I know she's in good hands so I don't have to worry about her. I just... really miss her. We came back home and Auggie... he doesn't understand. You can't explain these things to a dog. He saw that we all got in the car together, he saw that only he and I got back in the car, but he was still looking for her when we got home. He walked around looking, then came up to me and was making grunty, whiny monkey noises. He wasn't happy and I don't blame him. I don't like it either. It just doesn't feel right.
I kept her stuffed pepper, and I kept her bed. Auggie's breeder told me to hold onto it. I asked her if I could come out to the house, maybe start doing weekly classes again, and work with Pepper, and she said that sounded good. Once a week isn't going to be much but I doubt she'll ever be a trialing dog anyway, so I guess it's okay.
Her husband told me "well, hopefully we'll have puppies soon." That kinda made me feel even worse. I love Pepper even though she's not the right fit for me. I don't want it to seem like I dumped her for a puppy. I was worried about how I would have time for her AND a puppy when that time came, but I was pretty determined to try and find a way to work it out... I don't know. It's just all very icky feeling. And of course the funny thing is that the first thought in my head was "but I don't want a puppy. I want Pepper." And it sounded even bizarre in my head, because of COURSE I want a puppy. I want a puppy more than anything. I just didn't want to replace Pepper.
The good news is Auggie's breeder was very understanding about the whole thing. But my heart is just broken right now. I'm sure after a while it will become normal to not have her around, but man. I miss my funny little girl.
I thought it was going to be bad - I thought she was going to be really upset that she wasn't coming with me. She only turned around once and stared at me with this look of confusion... then turned back around and kept going. I got in the car then so she couldn't keep looking for me, and watched in my rear view mirror, and she never turned around again.
I know she's in good hands so I don't have to worry about her. I just... really miss her. We came back home and Auggie... he doesn't understand. You can't explain these things to a dog. He saw that we all got in the car together, he saw that only he and I got back in the car, but he was still looking for her when we got home. He walked around looking, then came up to me and was making grunty, whiny monkey noises. He wasn't happy and I don't blame him. I don't like it either. It just doesn't feel right.
I kept her stuffed pepper, and I kept her bed. Auggie's breeder told me to hold onto it. I asked her if I could come out to the house, maybe start doing weekly classes again, and work with Pepper, and she said that sounded good. Once a week isn't going to be much but I doubt she'll ever be a trialing dog anyway, so I guess it's okay.
Her husband told me "well, hopefully we'll have puppies soon." That kinda made me feel even worse. I love Pepper even though she's not the right fit for me. I don't want it to seem like I dumped her for a puppy. I was worried about how I would have time for her AND a puppy when that time came, but I was pretty determined to try and find a way to work it out... I don't know. It's just all very icky feeling. And of course the funny thing is that the first thought in my head was "but I don't want a puppy. I want Pepper." And it sounded even bizarre in my head, because of COURSE I want a puppy. I want a puppy more than anything. I just didn't want to replace Pepper.
The good news is Auggie's breeder was very understanding about the whole thing. But my heart is just broken right now. I'm sure after a while it will become normal to not have her around, but man. I miss my funny little girl.
I'm sorry Beanie
It sounds good though. Sounds like she likes it there and likes being with them so that makes it a little easier pill to swallow.
It was probably just as frustrating for her as it was for your dad to be stuck in a house with someone you don't want to go near and aren't comfortable with ... although I'm sure that doesn't make you feel any better nothing anyone will say will make it better
I'm sorry
It sounds good though. Sounds like she likes it there and likes being with them so that makes it a little easier pill to swallow.
It was probably just as frustrating for her as it was for your dad to be stuck in a house with someone you don't want to go near and aren't comfortable with ... although I'm sure that doesn't make you feel any better
nothing anyone will say will make it better I'm sorry
I know how you feel. When we had to return Holly to her breeder, it was...beyond heart breaking. She was the closest thing to a heart dog I'd ever had before I got Chloe. She was a part of me. Leaving her there was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. And unlike Pepper, she did look back. She kept crying, and trying to get out of the kennel we put her in. She kept jumping up on the gate, trying to open it, to get out, to get to us.... That day still haunts me.
So I was hesitant to ask her breeder about getting another puppy from them. After everything, I thought maybe she'd think I was a bad owner. But it was just the opposite. She saw that day how much we LOVED her. And she knew we would love Violet just as much.
I know that Peppy's breeder feels the same way about you. I know she can see how much you LOVE her, and knows that you'll love a puppy just that much. And it won't be replacing her...just the same way that Violet could never, ever replace Holly.
So I was hesitant to ask her breeder about getting another puppy from them. After everything, I thought maybe she'd think I was a bad owner. But it was just the opposite. She saw that day how much we LOVED her. And she knew we would love Violet just as much.
I know that Peppy's breeder feels the same way about you. I know she can see how much you LOVE her, and knows that you'll love a puppy just that much. And it won't be replacing her...just the same way that Violet could never, ever replace Holly.