It has been almost a year. Now that fall has come I think back to last year and realize it could never have happened the way it did, if it was now. The weather is strange, the storm stripped the leaves from the trees. I am sicker, the stress of what the child is going through is all consuming. There was just something that happened last year where everything fell into place for her, what she more than deserved. I wish she could have met my new grandson. I watched his Mama changing him and he was fussy. I thought if Mary was here she would be putting warm snuffles in his ears and making him giggle. I think things like that all the time. I wish we could have had one more year, but I am glad that last year was what it was, perfect weather, ample time, everything to send her across the bridge the way I wanted her to go.
Wish you could see the river here and enjoy the fireplace. I wish a lot of things for you. Hope your blowing bubbles in cool creek water with fall leaves floating by in a permanent Indian summer of bone warming sunshine.. Praying the angel babies 2 and four feet are there for you to watch over. I miss your smile and your ever thumping tail. Thinking of you this way makes me feel that your somewhere doing what you do best.
It's been a long year without you. Sometimes I think you left me with the lunatics.
This thread never ceases to amaze me that people are still reading this all these months. I will check back now and again to see another hundred or so views. It is too random to be anything that I can think of other than her story being passed on. Makes me feel like she is still out there somehow.
THanks Blue and THanks Mypy for coming by to say goodbye.