Oh, honey. ((((((Hugs))))))
You are strong. You *will* get through this. It will get better. And, while I know you wouldn't have chosen for this to happen, you will actually become stronger through this process and will get to know yourself better.
For now, just take your time and be good to yourself. Spend time with Kenya. Maybe you can foster again or volunteer for a rescue or shelter? Talk to your close friends, and hang out with them even if you feel like you're faking it a bit right now.
And I agree with a prior poster (Beanie?) about contact with the boy. I think trying for a friendship with him will just delay the inevitable, and could make you even more miserable in the process. For now, you need to concentrate only on yourself.
You are strong. You *will* get through this. It will get better. And, while I know you wouldn't have chosen for this to happen, you will actually become stronger through this process and will get to know yourself better.
For now, just take your time and be good to yourself. Spend time with Kenya. Maybe you can foster again or volunteer for a rescue or shelter? Talk to your close friends, and hang out with them even if you feel like you're faking it a bit right now.
And I agree with a prior poster (Beanie?) about contact with the boy. I think trying for a friendship with him will just delay the inevitable, and could make you even more miserable in the process. For now, you need to concentrate only on yourself.