I just feel like a horrible dog owner.
Art is suppose to go meet his trainer today to continue work with his reactivity. I'm just....having second thoughts about it I guess. I've already committed to today's meeting so I'll go, but I'm not sure if I want to continue.
Don't get me wrong, I love my trainer, she is awesome.I'm not sure if the reason I'm having doubts about it is purely my own selfishness or because I don't think he really needs this route. >_<
I like going to classes where there are other students and we meet weekly. I like having other people to talk to and progress with. Honestly, I also like the cost a lot more.
I'm also not really sure I like having one-on-one attention, it's a bit unnerving for me.
What makes me feel horrible is I keep thinking that Art is getting older, he's having seizures sporadically, I noticed a bit of a blue/white tint to his right eye yesterday, and he's not horribly reactive anyways. And I keep thinking "what are we really going to be able to accomplish?"
I feel horrible for thinking that, like I'm giving up on him.
I just don't know. -_-