As I said it my last thread my ex and father of my soon to be child said he wanted nothing to do with either the baby or myself, didn't love me anymore and that was not a very easy thing to hear, but it was well worth hearing. I junked my phone so he couldn't get ahold of me and have honored his wish of being left alone. That was five days ago on the 9th. He sent me a message yesterday at 1am, though I didn't recieve it till much later in the day. I didn't realize that when I removed him off my facebook I failed to block him as well. He wanted to have a heart to heart in person and asked if he could come over.
WHAT COULD YOU HAVE LEFT TO SAY AFTER THAT? Five days is not enough to have a change of heart. Not when we only just stopped being involved two weeks ago, yet you've gotten yourself a new girlfriend and moved on since from a relationship you were in for two years. Why would he think I'd want to have a heart to heart? The only thing only thing left to our relationship were our strong feelings for each other but that's even gone for him. So what the heck could be left to any of this that would be worth discussing?
My head hurts. I know I should just drop it as he's crazy making. Im not responding but I can't help but wonder what the heck is going on through his crazy head right now. I understand the situation was not planned for, we used protection, it failed, and he's freaking out and can't make up his mind what he's doing. But I've also been allowing him to be abusive too. Enough is enough. I can't do it this time.
I know a lot of you older, wiser members or even you younger ones with less life experience will say that this whole relationship was not really love and maybe one day with age I'll agree. But as it stands right now I don't have the slightest doubt I do love him and the only thing that holds me back is knowing it's not good for our baby for me to go back. I don't even know if that's what he wants, but Im assuming it is as right as our pattern goes, 2.5-3 weeks after he scampers off things start back up again. So for right now I won't for the baby and in time I know I'll have the strength to not put myself in those kinds of situations ever again for myself.
I think in the years I've been on Chaz the last two months I've posted more personal information than I ever have before. I am sorry for my baby drama. I'll let you all get back to your lives again.
On a happier note the baby can kick so hard now that if I put the laptop on my belly and it bangs me one it moves it! So cute.
WHAT COULD YOU HAVE LEFT TO SAY AFTER THAT? Five days is not enough to have a change of heart. Not when we only just stopped being involved two weeks ago, yet you've gotten yourself a new girlfriend and moved on since from a relationship you were in for two years. Why would he think I'd want to have a heart to heart? The only thing only thing left to our relationship were our strong feelings for each other but that's even gone for him. So what the heck could be left to any of this that would be worth discussing?
My head hurts. I know I should just drop it as he's crazy making. Im not responding but I can't help but wonder what the heck is going on through his crazy head right now. I understand the situation was not planned for, we used protection, it failed, and he's freaking out and can't make up his mind what he's doing. But I've also been allowing him to be abusive too. Enough is enough. I can't do it this time.
I know a lot of you older, wiser members or even you younger ones with less life experience will say that this whole relationship was not really love and maybe one day with age I'll agree. But as it stands right now I don't have the slightest doubt I do love him and the only thing that holds me back is knowing it's not good for our baby for me to go back. I don't even know if that's what he wants, but Im assuming it is as right as our pattern goes, 2.5-3 weeks after he scampers off things start back up again. So for right now I won't for the baby and in time I know I'll have the strength to not put myself in those kinds of situations ever again for myself.
I think in the years I've been on Chaz the last two months I've posted more personal information than I ever have before. I am sorry for my baby drama. I'll let you all get back to your lives again.
On a happier note the baby can kick so hard now that if I put the laptop on my belly and it bangs me one it moves it! So cute.