I need a shoulder to cry on........

[Love4Pits]

Ok in all truthfullness I have been out of my meds for three days now and that stuff leaves ones body rather quickly (Zoloft). I was having a pretty good day see previosue posts if you don't beleive me. But suddenly not a halph hour ago I was listening to a song that just brought back alot of bad bad memories of my past. I sat on my kitchen floor and cried and cried and was pulling at my hair (yes I know i sound crazy but this is what im like with out my meds). Luckily i had five dogs licking at my face and hovering over me like "what the hell??!!".... Im over it now and am definatly not skimping on getting my meds tomarow because i just don't like who i am when i don't have them. I have barely began to crack the shell and tell all of my stories i have of what has happened to me in my past and still going on in my present. Im sooooo sorry this is definatly inapropriate but i don't know what else to do or who else to turn too most people who know me get sick of me when im in this mood .

 

[Love4Pits]

one of my favorite songs


Well, the rain keeps on coming down
It feels like a flood in my head
And that road keeps on calling me
Screaming to everything lying ahead

And it's a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
I still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
I still have hope
I'm gonna find my way home

And I can see a little house
On top of the hill
And I can smell the ocean
The salt in the air
And I can see you
You're standing there
And you're washing your car
And I can see California sun in your hair

And its a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
Still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
I'm gonna find my way home

All these dreams took me so far
And I felt I just couldn't go on
And I want to hang
Out the window of your car
And see just how good this baby can run

'Cause it's a winding road
I've been walking for a long time
And I still don't know
Where it goes
And it's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
We're gonna find our way home

It's a winding road
Still have hope
One day we'll find our way home
It's a long way home
I've been searching for a long time
Still have hope
We're gonna find our way home

It's a long way home
It's a long way home

 

[bubbatd]

Hang in there !!! We're here for you. Zoloft put me into deeper depression ... I now am on Lexapro.....not a masker or "zombie" pill....just helps to focus on reality without side effects.....I wasn't on anything until 5 yrs ago.....should have been though. Just remember you are needed !!!

 

[smkie]

i call those pity party's for one..i figure i am intitled to a good cry on occasion. Once i became a parent..i learned to be quiet about it but i still had one when i needed, the children never knew but the dogs did. That is the balm for my crap in life. The good thing about who ever designed the human body is crying releases all good kind of harmones and such to help you cope..isn't that amazing? Then the universe sent us dogs. hugs for the hardtimes love4pits..and a wag and two from Vic and mary..Mary always knows you know.

 

[Fallout]

Hope you get better. I take meds too, and I take them before bed and I've forgotten the last few nights cuz I just get so comfortable in bed. So I've been feeling really crappy, I need to get away but I have to hold on till spring break =\ well thats if I can make it tillt hen. anyways getope things get better soon

 

[gaddylovesdogs]

I hope you feel better soon.

You should try natural treatments. I use them for my epilepsy and it works well. And I feel so much better mentally when I take them, too.

 

[CrazyDiego]

My brother was on Zoloft and like the previous poster said it put my brother into a deeper depression. He went off Zoloft with out telling his doctor and that is a major NO NO. (I guess from what his doc said....) That is a medicne that you have to tapper down the doses under a doctors care. The doctor told my brother that just being on the medicine for 3 months can cause you to become addicted to it.
HUGS I hope you feel better soon!!!

 

[Renee750il]

Pits, we're with you. I have those days when I just cry at anything, and there have been times when I've been so exhausted mentally, physically and emotionally that I could have driven my car over an embankment and been done with it. Couldn't do that to my wonderful, faithful car, though, and the doggies are always waiting for me to get home so they can love me and they need me to take care of them. That's one of the reasons I don't want to go back to working directly with clients; I go on overload. You're not alone at all - and there's nothing wrong with sitting down in the floor with the dogs and howling when you need to! And you can always howl to us! We might even howl back sometimes

 

[bubbatd]

I'm with you Renee,,,, I never took anything until I was over 65.....I was really a basketcase during menipause......thank the good Lord I had the dogs by by side !!! I remember one time loading the dogs in the station wagon....going 1/2 a mile and coming back crying " Sh*t...I have no place to go with 4 dogs and no money for even gas in the car !!"" Today I can laugh at it !!!

 

[Renee750il]

My Mom was the same way. After 65 her doctor put her on an anti-anxiety drug. My life would have been SOOOOO much better if she'd had that when I was growing up! I couldn't put a number on the times she threatened to leave my Dad and take my little sister and leave me with my Dad. Or the times she swore she was sending me away to school somewhere. And I wasn't a bad child. I never got in trouble, never did anything to embarrass her, got good grades (even skipped), wasn't influenced by the peer pressure monster, no drugs, no drinking . . .

The funny part is, when I got older and she'd say she was just going to leave my Dad and go live on her own I'd laugh at her and point out that she'd never even put gas in her own car . . .

I used to just break down into tears because she'd never really been happy in my entire life. Now, for the first time, she's actually getting to enjoy the good things in her life.

 

[Barb04]

Love4Pits, we are all here to listen whenever you need us. There are times that I just need to sit down here on the computer and cry it out. When holidays come, I begin to miss my mom, dad, brother, and my other pets that have all passed away. This is the first year I'm dealing with holidays since my dad passed away last year and it's so hard. Some people tell me I need to live in the present and not the past, but I'm one of those people that takes a long, long time to be able to deal with those that I love that are no longer here. I don't want to take medication, so as Renee said, I remember all my pets who need me as I need them. It does help.

 

[smkie]

yesterday sounds like kind of a rough day for all..I went over to my mom's and she was baking me a pinapple upside down cake. The last time she did that was when Bronki died..so you know what happened to me..lump in throat and tears in eyes..she always bakes me something lovely when i am down either mentally or physically..right now it is physically..love4pits..i would send you a piece if i coud thru the thread.

 

[Love4Pits]

Thanks everyone . I do feel better today i went this morning and got my prescription filled and im calmer now. Zoloft really doesent bother me only it makes me tired so i usually take it in the evening. But the dogs have been great for me and really help me collect myself. But thanks again everyone. I love this site because usually message boards are so fake but this one i feel like i have made true friends.

 

[Renee750il]

{{{hugs}}}

 

[smkie]

me too luv4pits..me too

 

[avenlee]

Glad your feeling better Pits! Sometimes a good night sleep and a new morning sunrise is the best thing.

I myself will get totally over emotional at times. Either with the kids acting up, hubby acting up or just a plain 'ole rotten day. I'd go home, break down, tell the hubby I'm going for a ride in the car only to come back within 15 mins. Tony would say, your back? (he knows I need to just go out and be by myself) I'd cry out "I have no where to go..." It is comforting when the dogs just know when your down and will not leave your side until they know your allright.

Chalk it up to winter blues ! Hate this time of year. I think everyone gets flippy and depressed at this time.

la la la The bear went over the mountain The bear went over the mountain The bear went over the mountain .. to see what he could see ....

always look forward and know that things over time will get better and just keep yourself healthy mentally and physically... (((((HUGS))))))

 

[ChiliBeans]

Love4Pits, you are welcome to cry on our shoulders any time. I totally understand what you are going through, although my depressive episodes are more due to biology rather than life experiences. I have discovered that I get really "weepy" without the meds I was prescribed (Celexa), like every aspect of life as I know it is against me somehow. I also agree with avenlee, the wintertime surely doesn't help out when it comes to feeling depressed. I have currently been experimenting with the benefits of yoga and its effects on the wellness of the body and mind. Perhaps it is something you could try when you need to clear your mind and release your emotions. Hang in there, we're here for you!

 

[Debi]

just adding my biggest, BIGGEST (((HUGS))) I sure know what it's like to feel down.......soooo nice to know you have friends...and you have MANY here!!!!

 

[smkie]

I question how the effects of zoloft are always a good thing. There are many different types of antidepressents..and one effect that zoloft has is the ability to make you even sadder if stopped abruptly. I forced myway through the hard times without any..yet when the house, and Jim and Bronki died i asked the doc for something. I felt so defeated..it was just too much. I don't know how much they really helped, i think Victor was more medicine than any pharmicutical i could have taken. There are naturals that are suppose to work just as good..including exercise (like you don't get enough of that as it is..) but it is actually the way it is done, and for how long. Working in the nursing home helped me too. I took care of people in such dire straits, that i felt lucky compared and it helped me..to help them. Just a thought i wanted to share with you.

 

[darkchild16]

Love4pits just pm me if you wanna talk i know what thats like im bipolar. I hope your doing good. Well i gotta go but pm me whenever

love ya

breeze