Sweetheart, one day that will be in your past and you wont need to outlet in this way. It just breaks my heart for i know the frustration and pain that drives a person to self mutilate. Hugs my girl, next time it is that bad..pm me first...i am home almost all the time and as u know check my e-mail off and on all day for a break in the painting and such..besides i love this forum to pieces......i been there gurl..this to will pass with time. I think you have the greatest potential of anyone i have met in a long long time....you are precious to me and i am a tough person to impress, let alone write how i feel like this. You got to find another outlet..for your anger and the out of control feelings that make this happen. Pm me and we can talk about it if you want, if not..i understand too.