Does anyone else ever just need a freaking break???

Discussion in 'The Fire Hydrant' started by Backward_Cinderella, Mar 7, 2012.

  1. I'm going out of my mind... I feel like I'm this | | close to a panic attack. I haven't had a panic attack in over a year.

    I spend all day cleaning and doing school and chasing after Winnie and dealing with nine million other things... and I have ZERO time for me. I cleaned the whole house today, top to bottom, all the EFFING things... First Piglet pees on the floor (I don't know what her deal is, I guess we need to work on house breaking now - Humane Society said she already was, whatever) then Winnie takes off her diaper and pees on the floor... So I give her a bath... then she finds the powdered sugar somewhere and spreads it all over the floor, herself, the washing machine, cabinets and dogs - all of which I've just cleaned. Jon's not feeling good today so he's not a lot of help. I cleaned EVERYTHING up, and then Winnie tears up a book all over the floor in our bedroom. I just got done making the bed and went to sit on the couch to rest for a minute thinking Jon was watching her. Nope. Not so.

    I want a break. I want to go somewhere with no kids, or take Winnie back to being three months old when she started sleeping through the night but was still cuddly and not running all over the place destroying all the things.

    My head and mouth have been hurting for two weeks, I have a cavity where a filling came out and I have to wait until freaking APRIL for my dental insurance to kick in... It was military dentists that put the filling in in the first place, I'm not sure I trust them to do this again.

    I want to go to Arizona, go to the ranch and pitch a tent on the edge of the property where nobody can come bother me. I'm sick of everything and every one and not having any time for me. I wanna go dance naked in the woods somewhere, but I'm afraid to even practice my freaking religion right now for fear that someone's going to vandalize our house or worse again. I hate Texas. I want to go back to Colorado and be done with everything for a LONG time.

    FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Now, I'm gonna get the hell of the internet, take my bottle of wine to bed, and drink and read a book until I fall asleep. Not the norm for me, but damnit right now I freaking DESERVE it.


    UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Cookie and a glass of wine to you if you read that whole thing.
     
  2. Gypsydals

    Gypsydals New Member

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    *Raises her hand*. I want to take a break, mostly from the stuff at work, but a few other things. A nice week long trip to my friends house in another state would be nice right now. But its not even a possibility until late summer. So yup I feel your frustration.
     
  3. Grab

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    Right there with you, except my kiddo STILL doesn't sleep through the night:eek: (granted, it's usually just a 'walk in and say 'hey, back to sleep with you' or give him a beverage, but it's waking up nonetheless)
     
  4. ThoseWordsAtBest

    ThoseWordsAtBest Wu-Tang Steph

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    Oh god yes. I think I have (over dramatically of course) said "I'm going to lay down on the floor and wait for swift death." at least 50 times in the last few days.
     
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    For me, the key is to just not worry about a clean house. With kids and dogs there are pretty much always going to be messes, and lots of them lol...nature of the beast. I know thats obvious, but sometimes in the moment you get caught up in the moment. And yes, some days are just too much for sure!!!

    And ****! Three months and sleeping through the night??? I am jealous lol...mine were both at least two. :D
     
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    Dizzy Sit! Good dog.

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    I kind of read that and it... well sounded like normal family life!!!

    Are you sure that's what's stressing you out, or is it something you haven't even considered?
     
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    ((((hugs))))

    I have a timer set every two hours as a reminder to take breaks. The rule is you have to drink a big glass of water and get a snack. It's made a huge difference in not getting burnt out.

    Sorry it's so hard right now. If you were closer I'd take Winnie for a while so you could go chill. :( (((hugs))) about the religion thing too. It's a horrible thing to not feel safe practicing your faith anywhere, much less your own home.
     
  8. sparks19

    sparks19 I'd rather be at Disney

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    I was feeling that last night. It's a full moon now so Hannah and the dogs have been super wound up (and GRUMPY) all week...e ach day just getting worse leading up to the full moon lol. Hubby was at Men's group with our church last night so it was just me and hannah was making a big deal out of every little thing. like silly things that don't really matter in the grand scheme of things (like where the potty/step stool should be)

    When 7:30 came I called it quits lol. I told Hannah it was time to brush her teeth and get ready for bed. she was in bed and asleep by 8. ahhhhhhhhhh... breathing room.

    then I laid on the couch with a blanket and watched a movie on Lifetime :) and had a snack lol.

    Doesn't help that I have PMS on top of the full moon which just makes everything seem 10 times worse than it really is lol. But Hannah slept through the night last night (and actuallyt he last few nights... yeah she still doesn't sleep through the night lol. noises outside keep waking her up... usually it's our neighbor going to work at 4 am, when he starts his car she can hear it) and I slept through most of the night, only waking a few times. so now today is a whole lot better even though it's going to be a really busy one and I'm ready for a "chill day" lol.
     
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    I kind of wondered the same......

    But at the same time, 'normal family life' can get too much at times.

    Sometimes the reality of your responsibilities falls on you like bricks and it's just.too.much. Been there, done that. Some days I feel like if ONE more person (even a child) asks for ONE more thing I will explode and take them down with me, LOL

    ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) for today to bring a better state of mind when you wake up :)
     
  10. Honestly, I think its this vandalism sh*t that's going on... We have a ritual coming up for Ostara this month and its supposed to be happening at our house... not only do I not want the house dirty as all get out with a bunch of people here, but I'm worried and scared that this idiot may do something again or even take it to the next level.
    I'm afraid to go out and smoke by myself, I'm scared for what's going to happen next time Jon has 24 hour duty (I've already made up my mind - we're ALL going to stay at a friend's house, but it doesn't stop me from worrying.) I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop all the time... I don't like being by myself any more, every little noise scares the crap out of me... WINNIE may be sleeping through the night, but I sure as hell am not any more. Its ridiculous that this is bothering me so much, and I don't know why it is, but I can't freaking make it STOP.
     
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    Call out the big guns. Have you done a full protection ritual lately? A cleansing? I had a friend who was having issues with a creepy peeper in their neighborhood and the energy had the whole family stressed and anxious. She did a full out protection ritual using dragons and it worked:)
     
  12. We're set to do a cleansing ritual again this weekend. We did one a few months ago when we first moved in, maybe it just wasn't enough.

    Dragons, huh? I practice Dragon Magick, but I don't know anyone else who does. :)
     
  13. sparks19

    sparks19 I'd rather be at Disney

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    Today is one of those "I'm DONE" days lol. it's not even so much that I'm stressed out, I'm just TIRED. We have been on the go all week. It feels like every second of the day has been filled with something except sit down and recharge time. This morning we got up, ate breakfast quickly and had to get out of the house and head to a "playdate" (Hannahs has a best friend... and her mom is also my closest friend here so we were just hanging out) but since the full moon is in full swing Hannah was moody and unco-operative (definitely not her usual self) and my friends two kids were also out of sorts so we didn't get to do much sitting and chatting lol, then from there we had to head right to homeschool co op for three hours, then hit the grocery store and then come home. once home I had to unload the groceries, made hannah some dinner (Brian and I will be eating a little late, he's still at work) and clean up the kitchen. I still need to make our dinner, give Hannah and myself baths and then get her ready for bed. After that... I'm checked out for the rest of the night LOL. I told Brian I don't even want to get up to get myself a drink... and I sure could use a stiff one (drink that is LOL, I don't have the energy for the other LOL)
     
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    Sparks! I'm needing to fan myself right now! I'm simply shocked! What's happened to you? :yikes: :rofl1:
     
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    It definitely sounds like you need a break away from everything and everyone BC. Then maybe you can start planning out a way to reach your goal of living somewhere out in the open...where it feels more right to you. If you want it badly enough, you'll figure out a way. It may not happen right away, but it can happen. Hang in there. And see about a more immediate break for now.
     
  16. sparks19

    sparks19 I'd rather be at Disney

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    LOL well someone was going to say it. Might as well have been me :rofl1:
     
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    That's so true that someone was going to catch that and of course, say something. LOL! Too funny.
     
  18. I can't wait to have our ranch out in the middle of nowhere... It can't happen soon enough. *wistfulsigh*
    On the plus, we know it shouldn't be TOO hard when he gets out, our credit scores are getting better and better every month, so that's a definite positive. We're not too far from the 650 USAA is asking to give us a loan. :)
     
  19. Lossalfling

    Lossalfling Ferret Keeper

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    Girl let me tell you about my week..LOL :) saterday night we left to go to Ill to attend a requiem mass on sunday for my s/o grandfather since his grandmother couldnt make it, we then went to the gravyard and paid our respects, then we headed to to PA to meet my s/o's father for the first time , got a snow white out on the way and had to pull over in toledo ohio for the night, finally got to PA around 2:30 in the afternoon on monday for the visit and had to leave at 6Am tuesday morning to have me home in time for work. In the meanwhile my computer was being a pain in the arse on the trip, 4 of my school assignments where due ( and uncompleted untill just last night) now I have only 7 more papers, 6 video's and tests , and three parts of my final paper to get done to get caught up before sunday. The house needs cleaned and the dogs are stuck to me like glue since they had to stay home for our little travels ( since we had to rent a car since mine died and is still awaiting fixing) plus Im trying to stop smoking and working everyday.. It must be a bad twist on earth for us all..:) Cleanse your house, put winnie to bed and get in the bathtub with some nice 4 point candle's and some soothing music. Take any time you can and make it YOUR time... even if its just five minutes it will healp clean your mind. Try not to worry about this asshole. People that write on walls and send notes are cowards, if he has the balls to do something more in your face he probly would have by now, Smile , protect , and dont let him win. He wants you to be afraid dont let him win.:) *hugs* and special thoughts sent for you and yours.
     
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    See? It sounds like you're under way already with some planning. It's hard. I know. But as I've gotten older, I've realized that the journey, the anticipation, dreaming and planning really is a huge part of the whole thing to relish and enjoy. I see that looking back over so many parts of my life. But it still sounds like you need a little vacation right now. lol. When life gets too stressful, ya just gotta have a break. I hope you can get one, especially with all the garbage you've been enduring....the creep or creeps who have been harassing you. Oh arrrgggghhhh!
     

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