I'm so torn. My mat leave ends in April, five weeks before she turns one.
On one hand, I love my job, my bosses, my coworkers, my employee perks (I'm a vet receptionist), and they treat me/pay me really well.
On the other, daycare is expensive, a good chunk of my pay cheque would be going to that and infant spots in licensed places here are incredibly hard to find. And I don't want to be away from her. My hours also suck. It takes me an hour to get to work so I'm gone for 11-12 hours a day.
I need to do some number crunching and I need to see what shifts they're willing to give me to see if I go back.
Soooooo anxiety inducing.