Ok, I just need to vent I guess. So please just ignore me. So as most of you probably have read, I’m a single mom, my son is 11. In January I started working/volunteering for a rescue group. I own 3 amazing dogs and we have a cat. Well at one point (yes I know this is from my ability not to say NO and me not understanding that I’m not super woman) we had 18, yes 18 dogs in my small house. It wasn’t too horrible as far as space went because 14 of them were infant puppies (2 different rescue litters). So besides doing that I also volunteer at our church (actually so does my son). Finally along the way with being pulled and stretched with the church volunteering then it was happening with fostering I finally broke. Shortly after that I find out that my dad is possibly going to die from some health complications (and he’s only 64). So I stepped down from volunteering at both the church and rescue and gave them almost a months notice.
A little more background, I’ve been walked over by so many people (including my ex-husband who left me for a healthier, younger, skinnier model), I do try to be a really good friend and go above and beyond. Well after my divorce and friends picked sides I decided that I no longer needed the friends I had because they were all full of negativity. I’ve gone as far as stocking people’s fridges because they couldn’t afford food (and they had kids and animals).
Well in August 2006 my parents moved to MO, about 6 hours away and my only friend left that I had finally let myself get close to moved to MN. They were the 2 houses we went to all the time if they weren’t at ours. My parents lifed 2 ½ blocks away and my friend wasn’t that far either. Needless to say it’s been a hard year not having them here. I did have my sister still here in IL with me (who I only get along with sometimes but it was better than nothing – why didn’t we get along that much – oh because she was one of the many women my husband cheated on me with). Well she moved (and I helped her) in May to life w/ her boyfriend in WI. So now it’s really just me and my son.
Anyway so now I’m feeling all alone. My son is a great kid but we both need other interaction with people. Most people are stand offish of us because of the dogs. They think I’m the biggest freak in the world because I own 3 dogs, honestly I don’t think 3 dogs is too many.
So 2 Sundays ago I go to church and one of the girls in the area I used to volunteer (and was fully planning on going back to volunteer again come Sept/Oct when things in life calmed down – lots of traveling still to MO to be w/ my dad) asks me if I can fill in for her this coming Sunday (29th), so I say yes because she’s desperate. Then the “manager” of our area calls me (because I emailed asking for the schedule so I could see what she was scheduled to do) and gives me **** because I left before. Well she knew that when I walked away it was because of my dad and all my traveling on the weekends to MO. She starts talking to me like I let her/ the church/ the volunteer team down by walking away. Then was acting like I just up and left and I didn’t, I finished out the month and there was one shift left that I couldn’t work but I found a replacement and let them know about it. Then she basically tells me that if I can’t commit to always being there that they don’t want me (ok, I don’t know her exact words but that’s how I took it). I said if I get a call that my dad’s back in the hospital I’m leaving weather I’m scheduled or not, but I won’t leave without letting someone know.
So am I wrong for being upset? It’s not as if I can’t find better things to do with my time other than volunteer at the church. I could be home spending more time with my son or the dogs. Or even volunteering at the Grey Hound Rescue (this isn’t the rescue that I volunteered for before). I just feel that if I’m going to be treated this way then why should I volunteer my time there?
Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. Just feeling useless & lonely here.
A little more background, I’ve been walked over by so many people (including my ex-husband who left me for a healthier, younger, skinnier model), I do try to be a really good friend and go above and beyond. Well after my divorce and friends picked sides I decided that I no longer needed the friends I had because they were all full of negativity. I’ve gone as far as stocking people’s fridges because they couldn’t afford food (and they had kids and animals).
Well in August 2006 my parents moved to MO, about 6 hours away and my only friend left that I had finally let myself get close to moved to MN. They were the 2 houses we went to all the time if they weren’t at ours. My parents lifed 2 ½ blocks away and my friend wasn’t that far either. Needless to say it’s been a hard year not having them here. I did have my sister still here in IL with me (who I only get along with sometimes but it was better than nothing – why didn’t we get along that much – oh because she was one of the many women my husband cheated on me with). Well she moved (and I helped her) in May to life w/ her boyfriend in WI. So now it’s really just me and my son.
Anyway so now I’m feeling all alone. My son is a great kid but we both need other interaction with people. Most people are stand offish of us because of the dogs. They think I’m the biggest freak in the world because I own 3 dogs, honestly I don’t think 3 dogs is too many.
So 2 Sundays ago I go to church and one of the girls in the area I used to volunteer (and was fully planning on going back to volunteer again come Sept/Oct when things in life calmed down – lots of traveling still to MO to be w/ my dad) asks me if I can fill in for her this coming Sunday (29th), so I say yes because she’s desperate. Then the “manager” of our area calls me (because I emailed asking for the schedule so I could see what she was scheduled to do) and gives me **** because I left before. Well she knew that when I walked away it was because of my dad and all my traveling on the weekends to MO. She starts talking to me like I let her/ the church/ the volunteer team down by walking away. Then was acting like I just up and left and I didn’t, I finished out the month and there was one shift left that I couldn’t work but I found a replacement and let them know about it. Then she basically tells me that if I can’t commit to always being there that they don’t want me (ok, I don’t know her exact words but that’s how I took it). I said if I get a call that my dad’s back in the hospital I’m leaving weather I’m scheduled or not, but I won’t leave without letting someone know.
So am I wrong for being upset? It’s not as if I can’t find better things to do with my time other than volunteer at the church. I could be home spending more time with my son or the dogs. Or even volunteering at the Grey Hound Rescue (this isn’t the rescue that I volunteered for before). I just feel that if I’m going to be treated this way then why should I volunteer my time there?
Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. Just feeling useless & lonely here.
