Uuugh. What a way to start the day.

[AllieMackie]

Woke up to the news that Matt's grandfather is dead. He committed suicide by jumping off their 6th floor balcony. His grandma woke up, followed a trail of blood to the balcony and...

I'm devastated on a number of levels. He's had arthritis and a few other health issues for a man of 80-some years, but he didn't seem to be at this level of pain or anguish. I suppose things can be hidden or change - grandma wouldn't have told us if he was this bad, anyway. But... it's a complete shock.

His grandparents have always been wonderful to us. His grandpa had a very dry, sarcastic sense of humour, it's easy to see where Matt got it from. Matt really admired his grandpa. He'd never admit it, but he's not dealing too well with this. He doesn't know how to deal with grief and is just sort of wandering the house aimlessly. :/

We have no idea what's going on. We just found out and will be going to either the apartment or wherever they wind up, Matt's mum will be calling us. I assume grandma is devastated, they were such a close couple. I feel like I shouldn't be writing all of this yet, but I had to tell someone and get it off my chest.

I'm not really okay right now.

 

[Lizmo]

Allie. . .(((((((((hugs)))))))) It's not easy and it hurts. I'm so, so sorry.

 

[MafiaPrincess]

Oh hunny, I am sorry. Did no one find him before his grandmother woke up? That is a really awful sight for her, I am truly sorry. *hugs to you and Matt*, awful way to start the day..

 

[Shai]

Oh I'm so sorry...praying for peace for your family, including Matt's grandpa.

 

[Dekka]

How tragic. ((hugs)) to all.

 

[sillysally]

I'm so, so sorry. Loss of a loved one is hard enough, but suicide makes it that much more devastating. You family is in my thoughts and prayers....

 

[SaraB]

I am so sorry. (((((((thousand hugs))))))) to you and your family.

 

[elegy]

I'm so sorry. What an incredibly sad thing.

 

[Baxter'smybaby]

oh what a hard, sad situation. I am so sorry for all involved.

 

[Brunski]

Oh, Allie. Such a sad thing. We're all here for you, just take time with your family and if you need anything, don't hesitate to let us known. *hugs*

 

[LauraLeigh]

I am so sorry (((((((((Hugs)))))))))

 

[JessLough]

****. Fckfckfckfck.

I am so sorry . Pass my sympathies the Matt, big hugs for the both of you <3

If there is anything I can do, please let me know (even if its just sitting with Finn on the day with services or whatever)

 

[poodlesmom]

I am so sorry!

 

[CaliTerp07]

Oh my gosh, what a horrible situation I'm so sorry for everyone involved

 

[Doberluv]

I am so very sorry. What a tragedy. It's such a shame he didn't talk to someone about the pain he was in, either physically or emotionally. My thoughts are with you and the whole family. (((Hugs)))

 

[Moth]

How terrible

(((Hugs)))

My sincere condolences to Matt, you, and the family...

 

[Snark]

So awful... (((((hugs)))))) to you and Matt and the rest of the family.

 

[Kristen1980]

(((((((( hugs ))))))) so sorry

 

[Barb04]

My thoughts and prayers go out to you, Matt and the family.

 

[AllieMackie]

Thanks everyone.

It's been a long day. We've been at the apartment helping to clean up and be there for his grandma. Matt's sisters will be staying the night.

We think he acted in panic because something happened outside his control (possibly his blood thinners failing), and his first thought was to "remove himself" and not burden anyone. All the signs are there that he had to act quickly; covering up all the blood with towels, wrenching the window screen off... I think he really didn't want to upset anyone.

Too bad it doesn't work that way.

The towels and screen are in a garbage bag in my shed because we couldn't find the usual apartment dumpster, they had moved it. I think I'll visit a dumpster on the way back there tonight and toss them. Ugh.