The Venting Thread

[Fran101]

Get huge intensive career training opportunity for 8 weeks in the place of my your dreams? YAY

Find out in order to qualify for work visa you must live in the intern housing, which by it's very nature as a science/medical facility has a firm no dog rule. Especially since your dog is not even a service dog in Europe.

It's a frikin disaster.
I have felt like crying all morning.

Everyone keeps telling me "it's only 8 weeks blablabla" but I haven't been more than a few days away from him, I'll have no seizure warning system, I won't have HIM.
I'll be working 14 hour shifts but I found ways to make it work, I found a walker and a daycare.

I
HATE
THIS

As of right now everyone and their mother is offering to watch him. Which is only making me lash out for no good reason they are only trying to help.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

[sillysally]

I was watching CNN and they showed images of what is going on in Gaza. The hospitals are filling up with the injured, there where people injured and bleeding and screaming and crying everywhere. There were so many children that the staff just took to treating them on blankets on the floor, there was a man screaming and crying that most of his family was killed in front of him by shells. I'm us usually not that badly effected by the news because I know there is nothing I can do about it but I just sat there and cried.

I tend to obcess about things so I'm going to watch a local draft horse show to get out of the house, or I'll be glued to CNN all night...

 

[stardogs]

Get huge intensive career training opportunity for 8 weeks in the place of my your dreams? YAY

Find out in order to qualify for work visa you must live in the intern housing, which by it's very nature as a science/medical facility has a firm no dog rule. Especially since your dog is not even a service dog in Europe.

It's a frikin disaster.
I have felt like crying all morning.

Everyone keeps telling me "it's only 8 weeks blablabla" but I haven't been more than a few days away from him, I'll have no seizure warning system, I won't have HIM.
I'll be working 14 hour shifts but I found ways to make it work, I found a walker and a daycare.

I
HATE
THIS

As of right now everyone and their mother is offering to watch him. Which is only making me lash out for no good reason they are only trying to help.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Oh Fran that suuuuucks. Could you maybe get some flexibility on the visa requirement given the extenuating circumstances if the place you're interning is hard and fast on the rules?

 

[MandyPug]

I'm at work and I just had a laughing fit and then started crying and now I'm really tired and embarassed so I took my lunch break.

I don't know why but I'm assuming it's because my psych switched my meds. I'm just so embarrassed.

 

[noludoru]

I'm at work and I just had a laughing fit and then started crying and now I'm really tired and embarrassed so I took my lunch break.

I don't know why but I'm assuming it's because my psych switched my meds. I'm just so embarrassed.

Don't be. This is how you get over crying in public. Just do it frequently and it becomes less humiliating. :rofl1:

The one you're on did that to me, too, though. Also, RAGE. THE SKY IS BLUE WHY IS IT BLUE **** THIS BLUE ****. WHO THOUGHT THAT UP SO I CAN PUSH THEM DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS.


My vent: oh, the farting. Middie has been horrifically flatulent (farts that wake me out of a sound sleep because they're so bad) and so has the boy. They're staging a competition, I swear. I'm going to go eat a ridiculous amount of dairy so I can stink them both out of the room.

 

[JessLough]

I'm not drunk enough for this bullshit.

Go away, creepy guy I do not know. I'm awkward and anti social and stranger danger. Also, Ican hear your friend telling you I might be interested. Hot tip: I'm not.

 

[RD]

Trigger warning, now, for sensitive mothers.



My unplanned and largely unwanted pregnancy is failing. My body isn't miscarrying like it should. Abortion procedure, even for a dead or dying fetus, is not covered by insurance due to its controversial nature. It's also quite costly as I am in my second trimester (as I very well suspected, despite an obgyn insisting that I was barely into my first). Due to the progression of the pregnancy, I have to have a dilation and evacuation procedure done in a clinic. The clinic is 70 miles away.

Even though the clinic will help me all they can with financial assistance, I am going to be financially devastated and in a lot of debt due to this.

I am disgusted with the doctors that told me for years that I couldn't have children. Disgusted with myself that I believed them and wasn't more careful. Disgusted with the whole situation because in the past month I've been reluctantly preparing myself for motherhood, preparing myself to share the news with my family, preparing for a complete life change and actually beginning to look forward to aspects of it. And now I'm just going to be **** near homeless for a baby I'll never see.

I'm hormonal and emotional and I ****ing hate everything about this. The part of me that wants to be a mother is repulsed by the part of me that sees this as a blessing in disguise because I was NOT ready to have a kid. It's making me hate myself and I really hope that it stops soon, because I have never in my life been so sad.

 

[Dizzy]

RD massive hugs. I can't imagine how you're feeling. No matter how planned or unplanned a pregnancy is, the feelings it conjures up can take you totally by surprise. It's totally normal to feel totally opposing things so don't feel horrid or guilty. So sorry you're having to go through this on so many levels. Try and give it time... Sometimes the body takes a while to sort itself out. No matter what you want, you need to grieve for this rollercoaster of emotions and experience. Take it easy.

 

[Ozfozz]

((((((Hugs))))))
RD, I can't begin to imagine how painful everything must be. I would be livid with those doctors who told you that you weren't able to have children.
I'm so sorry that you have to go through this

 

[xpaeanx]

Trigger warning, now, for sensitive mothers.



My unplanned and largely unwanted pregnancy is failing. My body isn't miscarrying like it should. Abortion procedure, even for a dead or dying fetus, is not covered by insurance due to its controversial nature. It's also quite costly as I am in my second trimester (as I very well suspected, despite an obgyn insisting that I was barely into my first). Due to the progression of the pregnancy, I have to have a dilation and evacuation procedure done in a clinic. The clinic is 70 miles away.

Even though the clinic will help me all they can with financial assistance, I am going to be financially devastated and in a lot of debt due to this.

I am disgusted with the doctors that told me for years that I couldn't have children. Disgusted with myself that I believed them and wasn't more careful. Disgusted with the whole situation because in the past month I've been reluctantly preparing myself for motherhood, preparing myself to share the news with my family, preparing for a complete life change and actually beginning to look forward to aspects of it. And now I'm just going to be **** near homeless for a baby I'll never see.

I'm hormonal and emotional and I ****ing hate everything about this. The part of me that wants to be a mother is repulsed by the part of me that sees this as a blessing in disguise because I was NOT ready to have a kid. It's making me hate myself and I really hope that it stops soon, because I have never in my life been so sad.

Because you have a medical need for an abortion and are not choosing to have one simply because you don't wish to have this child is there a way that they can get it covered? I know coding and diagnosis have a lot to do with bills getting/not getting paid. I would even call your insurance company yourself and explain this is a NEEDED procedure not an ELECTED one and see if they can help you. Doctors get pretty good at how to write down diagnoses but they're not always aware of all the different ways the insurance wants them.

But I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can't even imagine.

 

[Paviche]

RD, I'm so sorry. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through.

My vent is small in comparison but it's kind of freaking me out. My mom and I just renewed our lease today, but it's only for 9 months this time because the landlord is selling the place. My mom wants to but it, but it's up in the air whether that can actually happen or not. Housing in Denver is so freaking expensive and I'm not sure what I'm going to do if the place is sold. I can't afford anything on my own (despite making ok money now) and I don't know anyone who will be moving or looking for a roommate.

I've been thinking about moving out of state to experience something new, so I guess that's a possibility but again... I don't know if I could afford it, plus I love my job, plus I'm afraid of moving somewhere I don't know anyone.

 

[sillysally]

RD, I don't know what to say other than I am so incredibly sorry you are going through this. It is completely unjust that you cannot get the procedure covered under insurance and have to endure financial hardship in this already difficult time. (((Hugs)))

 

[Taqroy]

This weekend was almost entirely awful. There were a few shiny moments but mostly I don't want to see my family again until they grow the **** up. I am so done.

 

[StillandSilent]

RD- I think what you're feel

 

[MicksMom]

Trigger warning, now, for sensitive mothers.



My unplanned and largely unwanted pregnancy is failing. My body isn't miscarrying like it should. Abortion procedure, even for a dead or dying fetus, is not covered by insurance due to its controversial nature. It's also quite costly as I am in my second trimester (as I very well suspected, despite an obgyn insisting that I was barely into my first). Due to the progression of the pregnancy, I have to have a dilation and evacuation procedure done in a clinic. The clinic is 70 miles away.

Even though the clinic will help me all they can with financial assistance, I am going to be financially devastated and in a lot of debt due to this.

I am disgusted with the doctors that told me for years that I couldn't have children. Disgusted with myself that I believed them and wasn't more careful. Disgusted with the whole situation because in the past month I've been reluctantly preparing myself for motherhood, preparing myself to share the news with my family, preparing for a complete life change and actually beginning to look forward to aspects of it. And now I'm just going to be **** near homeless for a baby I'll never see.

I'm hormonal and emotional and I ****ing hate everything about this. The part of me that wants to be a mother is repulsed by the part of me that sees this as a blessing in disguise because I was NOT ready to have a kid. It's making me hate myself and I really hope that it stops soon, because I have never in my life been so sad.

My God, girl, I am so, so, so sorry you are going through this. (((Hugs)))

 

[JazzyTheSibe]

Trigger warning, now, for sensitive mothers.



My unplanned and largely unwanted pregnancy is failing. My body isn't miscarrying like it should. Abortion procedure, even for a dead or dying fetus, is not covered by insurance due to its controversial nature. It's also quite costly as I am in my second trimester (as I very well suspected, despite an obgyn insisting that I was barely into my first). Due to the progression of the pregnancy, I have to have a dilation and evacuation procedure done in a clinic. The clinic is 70 miles away.

Even though the clinic will help me all they can with financial assistance, I am going to be financially devastated and in a lot of debt due to this.

I am disgusted with the doctors that told me for years that I couldn't have children. Disgusted with myself that I believed them and wasn't more careful. Disgusted with the whole situation because in the past month I've been reluctantly preparing myself for motherhood, preparing myself to share the news with my family, preparing for a complete life change and actually beginning to look forward to aspects of it. And now I'm just going to be **** near homeless for a baby I'll never see.

I'm hormonal and emotional and I ****ing hate everything about this. The part of me that wants to be a mother is repulsed by the part of me that sees this as a blessing in disguise because I was NOT ready to have a kid. It's making me hate myself and I really hope that it stops soon, because I have never in my life been so sad.

((((HUGS)))) I'm so,so,so sorry.. I can't even start to think of whys your going through.

 

[RD]

Because you have a medical need for an abortion and are not choosing to have one simply because you don't wish to have this child is there a way that they can get it covered? I know coding and diagnosis have a lot to do with bills getting/not getting paid. I would even call your insurance company yourself and explain this is a NEEDED procedure not an ELECTED one and see if they can help you. Doctors get pretty good at how to write down diagnoses but they're not always aware of all the different ways the insurance wants them.

But I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can't even imagine.

My insurance is covered by my workplace, and abortion is not in any way a procedure that my policy (or any policy I could obtain through my workplace) will cover.

If I wait for the fetus to be dead and causing health issues in me due to decay, I think there's a possibility I could get it covered, but I'm unwilling to do that and risk my own health.

Thanks for the hugs. I appreciate that you guys give a ****. You are the only people I have to talk to fully about this. I don't want to break my family's heart by telling them. My own boyfriend can't be bothered to care. Today I've been completely excluded from everything, deliberately, and I've done nothing wrong. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't walk away from my life here until I have this procedure done and I feel I am thinking more rationally, but it's taking all I have in me to keep from taking everything we have and leaving.

Pray for me, if you're the praying type. Please. I am losing my grip.

 

[stardogs]

My insurance is covered by my workplace, and abortion is not in any way a procedure that my policy (or any policy I could obtain through my workplace) will cover.

If I wait for the fetus to be dead and causing health issues in me due to decay, I think there's a possibility I could get it covered, but I'm unwilling to do that and risk my own health.

Thanks for the hugs. I appreciate that you guys give a ****. You are the only people I have to talk to fully about this. I don't want to break my family's heart by telling them. My own boyfriend can't be bothered to care. Today I've been completely excluded from everything, deliberately, and I've done nothing wrong. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't walk away from my life here until I have this procedure done and I feel I am thinking more rationally, but it's taking all I have in me to keep from taking everything we have and leaving.

Pray for me, if you're the praying type. Please. I am losing my grip.

I'm so, so, sorry RD, for what you're going through, for the hassles about finding a way to protect your own health, for the lack of support you have IRL. I'm glad you have confided in the folks here and will send you all the prayers, good vibes, and comforting thoughts I can. (((hugs)))

 

[*blackrose]

My insurance is covered by my workplace, and abortion is not in any way a procedure that my policy (or any policy I could obtain through my workplace) will cover.

If I wait for the fetus to be dead and causing health issues in me due to decay, I think there's a possibility I could get it covered, but I'm unwilling to do that and risk my own health.

Thanks for the hugs. I appreciate that you guys give a ****. You are the only people I have to talk to fully about this. I don't want to break my family's heart by telling them. My own boyfriend can't be bothered to care. Today I've been completely excluded from everything, deliberately, and I've done nothing wrong. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't walk away from my life here until I have this procedure done and I feel I am thinking more rationally, but it's taking all I have in me to keep from taking everything we have and leaving.

Pray for me, if you're the praying type. Please. I am losing my grip.

(((Hugs)))

I am so, so sorry. I really don't even know what to say, except that you will be in my prayers. If there is anything you need, let us know.

 

[sassafras]

Oh, god, I can't even imagine trying to navigate this. I'm so sorry for what you're going through and that you have to deal with the financial stuff in addition to the emotional stuff.