My workplace is having a meeting today. This is annoying because this is the second one in a row they've have on my day off (they're supposed to rotate days). That is annoying because it means I have to send my kiddo to an extra day of daycare, which means I'm paying more to go to this meeting than I'm getting paid by being there. Iiiiirksome
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This was yesterday, but I'm still pissed.
Call GED place to confirm classes are still on for that night. Got a yes.
Go to school where GED classes are held. Ask around. Nobody has any idea what I'm talking about, all classrooms are locked and dark.
Get outside, Em has asspiss and throws up.
I'm having a ridiculously hard time finding information for other classes being offered in the area. Fark.
Call GED place to confirm classes are still on for that night. Got a yes.
Go to school where GED classes are held. Ask around. Nobody has any idea what I'm talking about, all classrooms are locked and dark.
Get outside, Em has asspiss and throws up.
I'm having a ridiculously hard time finding information for other classes being offered in the area. Fark.
Why am I so depressed? I'm on medication. It should be working. Blood tests say yay. Everything in my life is going well, and in a few months it will be going REALLY well. So. . . why? I'm tired of this. I need to be on my game for the rest of the week and all I can fantasize about is sleeping in bed and not selling any cars, like, ever, and not even getting out of bed. Ever.
Oh, and my boss is like "I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE DEPRESSED! You need to shove it all to the side and ignore it. I ignore MY home life issues, you should be able to do the same."
I CAN'T IGNORE A MEDICAL CONDITION, YOU IMPOTENT, RAGING, PATHETIC, MOTHER****ING MORON. THAT'S LIKE TELLING ME TO IGNORE MY BLOOD PRESSURE PROBLEMS OR MY BROKEN LEG. Why are mental health issues treated as less than? MY DEPRESSION IS SO SEVERE I'M ON MEDICATION FOR IT. Don't tell me it's some trivial ****ing issue that I need to be able to put aside for work. It's not like my dog peeing on the rug or getting into an argument with my roommate. It's a constant wish to either be in bed, asleep, so I don't have to feel anything again or to be dead. It's an inability to smile or relate to people.
I'm just. . . frustrated. I realize there are ups and downs and this will go away, but I need some sort of support and the only place I get it is from my friend who is also manic-depressive, but thinks you don't need medication, you just need to "suck it up" and you can "handle it" on your own. Even though when he was on meds he did ten times better, no, clearly the meds weren't helping.
For ****'s sake. I just want to scream and yell a bit and go back to bed.
Oh, and my boss is like "I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE DEPRESSED! You need to shove it all to the side and ignore it. I ignore MY home life issues, you should be able to do the same."
I CAN'T IGNORE A MEDICAL CONDITION, YOU IMPOTENT, RAGING, PATHETIC, MOTHER****ING MORON. THAT'S LIKE TELLING ME TO IGNORE MY BLOOD PRESSURE PROBLEMS OR MY BROKEN LEG. Why are mental health issues treated as less than? MY DEPRESSION IS SO SEVERE I'M ON MEDICATION FOR IT. Don't tell me it's some trivial ****ing issue that I need to be able to put aside for work. It's not like my dog peeing on the rug or getting into an argument with my roommate. It's a constant wish to either be in bed, asleep, so I don't have to feel anything again or to be dead. It's an inability to smile or relate to people.
I'm just. . . frustrated. I realize there are ups and downs and this will go away, but I need some sort of support and the only place I get it is from my friend who is also manic-depressive, but thinks you don't need medication, you just need to "suck it up" and you can "handle it" on your own. Even though when he was on meds he did ten times better, no, clearly the meds weren't helping.
For ****'s sake. I just want to scream and yell a bit and go back to bed.
(((Hugs))) Nolu.
My vent:
Yesterday tried to go get new stickers for my plate. No. It's Confederate Memorial Day and they were closed. Instead went and bought a printer so I could print off my resume for a job application.
Today, get everything ready to leave. My car now has expired plates. Oh, well. Have my resume for the job application. Wait for the thunderstorm to pass and go to leave....and the freaking road is flooded. Started to go through it, chickened out, and decided to take a back road. It's flooded worse. Great. Was going to take the truck instead....and it has no windshield wipers. Double great.
Guess I won't be doing anything today. Again. I'm really starting to get antsy about this stupid job application. I don't want to miss out on it! Ugh!
Really starting to feel like I'm just existing and not living. And that sucks.
My vent:
Yesterday tried to go get new stickers for my plate. No. It's Confederate Memorial Day and they were closed. Instead went and bought a printer so I could print off my resume for a job application.
Today, get everything ready to leave. My car now has expired plates. Oh, well. Have my resume for the job application. Wait for the thunderstorm to pass and go to leave....and the freaking road is flooded. Started to go through it, chickened out, and decided to take a back road. It's flooded worse. Great. Was going to take the truck instead....and it has no windshield wipers. Double great.
Guess I won't be doing anything today. Again. I'm really starting to get antsy about this stupid job application. I don't want to miss out on it! Ugh!
Really starting to feel like I'm just existing and not living. And that sucks.
GRRRRRRRRRR I broke the kitchen faucet. I HATE THIS HOUSE!!!!!!! Ok I don't hate it but it seems like everything in it is falling apart. All I was doing was wiping it down and it just popped off. The piece that turns the water on and off is one of those swivel types... you lift it to turn it on and then swing it left or right for temp and push down to shut off... well that piece just popped right off. The screw that holds it on was rusted right through. I DON"T HAVE TIME FOR THIS lol
If its not working tell them you want to try something else. Not everything works for everyone. If the dr keeps saying give it time then get another because you should be feeling better from meds started in nov.
Thinking of you! If you lived closer I'd tell you who the good drs are but your a bit far lol! Doesn't hurt to ask around though. People call at work all the time and ask who we reccomend for psychiatrists so doubt your local hospital would be shocked if you called and asked.
Thinking of you! If you lived closer I'd tell you who the good drs are but your a bit far lol! Doesn't hurt to ask around though. People call at work all the time and ask who we reccomend for psychiatrists so doubt your local hospital would be shocked if you called and asked.
I understand that we all have different likes/dislikes dog wise aesthetically. I get that and I don't think I'm too sensitive about it, that said I received a anonymous message on tumblr that was just really judgmental about Merlin and his structure and looks and coat and I hate how much it stung to read 
the person didn't even sound angry, just informing me that my dog is all wrong and why. I just hate that with the amount of love I have for him and the amount of people that compliment him, this got me as much as it did. I know nothing about structure or coat I just never saw him as anything less than perfect and never hesitated to post pictures of him and now I just feel weird about it. I still think he's perfect but it's weird thinking there are people seeing pictures of him just being happy and making such harsh judgments.
the person didn't even sound angry, just informing me that my dog is all wrong and why. I just hate that with the amount of love I have for him and the amount of people that compliment him, this got me as much as it did. I know nothing about structure or coat I just never saw him as anything less than perfect and never hesitated to post pictures of him and now I just feel weird about it. I still think he's perfect but it's weird thinking there are people seeing pictures of him just being happy and making such harsh judgments.
I understand that we all have different likes/dislikes dog wise aesthetically. I get that and I don't think I'm too sensitive about it, that said I received a anonymous message on tumblr that was just really judgmental about Merlin and his structure and looks and coat and I hate how much it stung to read the person didn't even sound angry, just informing me that my dog is all wrong and why. I just hate that with the amount of love I have for him and the amount of people that compliment him, this got me as much as it did. I know nothing about structure or coat I just never saw him as anything less than perfect and never hesitated to post pictures of him and now I just feel weird about it. I still think he's perfect but it's weird thinking there are people seeing pictures of him just being happy and making such harsh judgments.
the person didn't even sound angry, just informing me that my dog is all wrong and why. I just hate that with the amount of love I have for him and the amount of people that compliment him, this got me as much as it did. I know nothing about structure or coat I just never saw him as anything less than perfect and never hesitated to post pictures of him and now I just feel weird about it. I still think he's perfect but it's weird thinking there are people seeing pictures of him just being happy and making such harsh judgments.
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I understand that we all have different likes/dislikes dog wise aesthetically. I get that and I don't think I'm too sensitive about it, that said I received a anonymous message on tumblr that was just really judgmental about Merlin and his structure and looks and coat and I hate how much it stung to read the person didn't even sound angry, just informing me that my dog is all wrong and why. I just hate that with the amount of love I have for him and the amount of people that compliment him, this got me as much as it did. I know nothing about structure or coat I just never saw him as anything less than perfect and never hesitated to post pictures of him and now I just feel weird about it. I still think he's perfect but it's weird thinking there are people seeing pictures of him just being happy and making such harsh judgments.
the person didn't even sound angry, just informing me that my dog is all wrong and why. I just hate that with the amount of love I have for him and the amount of people that compliment him, this got me as much as it did. I know nothing about structure or coat I just never saw him as anything less than perfect and never hesitated to post pictures of him and now I just feel weird about it. I still think he's perfect but it's weird thinking there are people seeing pictures of him just being happy and making such harsh judgments.
I posted a picture here once of Corvus, and it was snagged by someone, uploaded to Icanhascheeseburger.com and made into a million different memes. Many were not nice, and referred to him as ugly, among other things. Even people I know in person tell me how ugly he is. It pisses me off, sure, but hey...in the end, *I* love my dog and *I* think he's the most handsome creature on the planet, so screw 'em. Me personally, I think the only thing ugly about Corvus is the sheer number of assholes he attracts who feel compelled to comment negatively on his looks. People who, without being asked for their opinion, think it's okay to tell someone their furry little sidekick isn't their idea of perfect have no tact and aren't worth the energy. Don't let it get to you. Merlin is fluffy cuteness, and probably has more friends than some bitter old tumblr hag.
People are dicks, unless you were in a show ring where you pay someone to judge him then this one persons opinion is worthless. Post more Merlin pics, I love seeing him
