The Venting Thread
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Been there, done that. It sucks. The docs aren't lying when they say it's likely that you'll grow out of it, though. It's so different and miserable for everyone. I'm so sorry. 
RHIO IS STILL STALKING ME.
STILL.
IT HAS BEEN 5 MONTHS.
I guess she has nothing better to do? Is so miserable with herself? Can't get over the fact that I got everything she wanted - A LOYAL, LOVING, DEDICATED, WANTS TO MARRY ME boyfriend? Is it guilt? Like a "****, I threw away the ONE friend I could ALWAYS count on because I was jealous and insane. Treated her like **** because I was selfish"?
WHO KNOWS. DON'T CARE. STOP STALKING ME. YOU AREN'T IMPORTANT. STUPID POGO STICK GIVING, SOUR MILK SMELLING, DRINK ORANGE JUICE AFTER YOU BRUSH YOUR TEETH TASTING, CRAZY BITCH. YOU WEREN'T EVEN THAT GOOD. LEAVE ME ALONE.
In other news, FLU SUCKS. And my arms hurt since the nurse stuck me like four times trying to get in my veins. And it is like a monsoon outside. Reports of possible tornadoes.
And if I die I have to deal with one of my last memories of this insane woman. I refuse!
STILL.
IT HAS BEEN 5 MONTHS.
I guess she has nothing better to do? Is so miserable with herself? Can't get over the fact that I got everything she wanted - A LOYAL, LOVING, DEDICATED, WANTS TO MARRY ME boyfriend? Is it guilt? Like a "****, I threw away the ONE friend I could ALWAYS count on because I was jealous and insane. Treated her like **** because I was selfish"?
WHO KNOWS. DON'T CARE. STOP STALKING ME. YOU AREN'T IMPORTANT. STUPID POGO STICK GIVING, SOUR MILK SMELLING, DRINK ORANGE JUICE AFTER YOU BRUSH YOUR TEETH TASTING, CRAZY BITCH. YOU WEREN'T EVEN THAT GOOD. LEAVE ME ALONE.
In other news, FLU SUCKS. And my arms hurt since the nurse stuck me like four times trying to get in my veins. And it is like a monsoon outside. Reports of possible tornadoes.
And if I die I have to deal with one of my last memories of this insane woman. I refuse!
Ugh. **** everything. I've done nothing but work and run errands for my mom (in the ****ing SNOW AND ICE which I HATE) and all she can do is whine and complain and says how tired she is. I GET TIRED TO. **** OFF. And now I have to go exchange crap at Walmart TONIGHT because my brother bought the same stuff as I did, even though I went first and TOLD HIM what I got. Then I get yelled at because it took me too long to get home (HELLO, SNOW AND ICE!) and now it's too late to make cookies.
This is why I hate Christmas. My mom always has to turn it into such a ****ing stressful event. I hate it. I want to move far away so I can just send a package and be done with it. I love Christmas shopping, I just hate how my mom makes everyone feel about everything.
This is why I hate Christmas. My mom always has to turn it into such a ****ing stressful event. I hate it. I want to move far away so I can just send a package and be done with it. I love Christmas shopping, I just hate how my mom makes everyone feel about everything.
There has been so much loss this year, it's just unbelievable. No one in my immediate family, but people that have been significant in my life at some point, or friends/family of my friends/family. Just this week, lost a very close family friend that has been around since I was a baby to cancer. My mom's coworker killed himself last night. So much loss and bad stuff happening. Ready for a new, better year. Hopefully?
I just don't feel Christmas-y this year. We lost all our decorations/tree in the flood and my family has just been so busy this month to go out and buy new decorations. So there's nothing up. I've also been in exams up until like two days ago, and have just been so focused in that that I haven't even got into the Christmas spirit yet. And I'm usually all about Christmas.
I've bought one present so far.
And I'm usually all about Christmas.I've bought one present so far.
K, so, Queen of Bad Decisions reporting for duty here.
Went to party last night. Phone died and couldn't call my DD, and my general manager bought me so many shots there was no way I was driving or looking at a car or even saying the word "driving" out loud. I then propositioned a manager from the work party and went home with them. Bad decision on so many levels. I can't even begin to list the reasons that was bad.
Couldn't sleep, COFFEE MAKER DIDN'T WORK, thankfully didn't offend anyone by walking out naked to get water, lost my car keys somewhere, don't have my house keys, had to deal with four dudes while on no sleep and no coffee. Translation: I was a giant bitch.
On the plus side, I made sure I was absolutely awful in bed this morning so he wont want to do that ever again. And I didn't have to pay for my cab ride home.
But, when I got there with no keys and no garage door opener it meant crawling in the dog door at 8:30AM through a few inches of snow, only to be pounced on while I was halfway through by an excited little DerpDog. Who sneezed continuously in my face with excitement until I could get him off of me.
So now my car is 30 minutes away and I have no keys to it. YAAAAAAAY.
Went to party last night. Phone died and couldn't call my DD, and my general manager bought me so many shots there was no way I was driving or looking at a car or even saying the word "driving" out loud. I then propositioned a manager from the work party and went home with them. Bad decision on so many levels. I can't even begin to list the reasons that was bad.
Couldn't sleep, COFFEE MAKER DIDN'T WORK, thankfully didn't offend anyone by walking out naked to get water, lost my car keys somewhere, don't have my house keys, had to deal with four dudes while on no sleep and no coffee. Translation: I was a giant bitch.
On the plus side, I made sure I was absolutely awful in bed this morning so he wont want to do that ever again. And I didn't have to pay for my cab ride home.
But, when I got there with no keys and no garage door opener it meant crawling in the dog door at 8:30AM through a few inches of snow, only to be pounced on while I was halfway through by an excited little DerpDog. Who sneezed continuously in my face with excitement until I could get him off of me.
So now my car is 30 minutes away and I have no keys to it. YAAAAAAAY.
HA! as a teenager I used to do that.
But as I got older the "responsibility training" my parents drilled into my skull kicked in and since I am aspiring to be a race horse trainer in the future (well I do some training now but I am going for the official title soon) I can't afford to have any ... Blemishes with the law lol.
But as I got older the "responsibility training" my parents drilled into my skull kicked in and since I am aspiring to be a race horse trainer in the future (well I do some training now but I am going for the official title soon) I can't afford to have any ... Blemishes with the law lol.
I'm lonely, and I hate it!! It's weird too because in many ways I am very happy, I love my little house and my therapist has helped me work through a lot already... But I've never lived alone and with the holidays and being iced in I'm struggling today..
I'm also so far out of touch with Chaz, I need to spend some time catching up!
I'm also so far out of touch with Chaz, I need to spend some time catching up!