One last week...

[MH<3dogs]

I know I don't post here much and when I did it was mostly about my young girl Hannah. But my heart is aching and only people who truly treat their pets like family would understand why. So that is why I came back here.

This will be my last week with my heart dog Midnight. On Thursday I will help her cross over to the rainbow bridge. Midnight was my first dog that I got when I was 9 years old. She's my heart and it kills me to make this decision as I always hoped she would just pass peacefully in her sleep.

The next 6 days will be bittersweet...

 

[PixieSticksandTricks]

I am so sorry for your impending loss . Its so hard to let a heart dog go. Especially one you grew up with. Midnight is a beautiful dogs. And im sure you two will cherish your last days together.

((((((((((HUGS))))))))

 

[PlottMom]

I'm so sorry she's very lucky to have someone who cares *that much* about her that they can do this... many people are far too selfish! Hugs to you and yours, and I hope you two have a lovely 6 days of enjoying each other and Midnight's favorite things

 

[bubbatd]

Enjoy your time left with your dear pal . We understand . ( hugs ) .

 

[Zoom]

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this, but I just want to say that you have held up your end of the bargain between us and our beloved pets and she will thank you forever for it.

 

[Baxter'smybaby]

((hugs))

 

[Renee750il]

((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) This is so hard.

Know, though, that one day you will look into the eyes of a dog and you will know that Midnight sent you one to bring joy back to the empty places.

 

[Doberluv]

I'm so very sorry you're going through this inevidible and painful loss. I hope the dread you feel will be balanced with gladness of your time together. And know that you're doing your best friend the most kind service a dog owner can do, to make his passing as comfortable as possible. No words can really measure up to anything that would truly bring you solace. But I hope you can find a little bit of peace as you go through this hard time. (((hugs)))

 

[bubbatd]

You are stronger than I .When I knew it was a matter of days , I couldn't bring them home .





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[MH<3dogs]

Thank you everyone for your kind words.

Today we went to her favorite spot that we call the "meadow." I so badly wanted to let her off her lead but since her hearing is gone and her eyesight is not that great I just knew it would not be safe. Instead she got to romp on her flexi lead and choose which way we got to go and then after about a half hour she decided it was time to go back home.

I'm just so torn since I've never had to make this decision before. I feel in a way I am being selfish that maybe I should wait a little longer. She's 14 years old and her kidneys are failing her. The vet says even with the diet change and the meds she might have 3-4 months but that's not definite (it could be more, it could be less). But I don't want to watch her deteriorate. I want her to still be able to walk, eat and seem comfortable. I don't want to have to do this when she can't get up anymore or she can't eat anymore. I don't want to wait until she's suffering.

I can't see her being happy having pills shoved down her throat since she's a horrible pill taker. She's always been a picky eater so I can't see her enjoying being on this "special diet". I mean she's loving life right now eating things that she hasn't been able to eat in years because of her food allergies.

Death is inevitable with this disease but am I taking her life away too soon just because I don't want to see what happens when everything fails. I mean isn't that the whole point of euthanasia so that pets don't suffer? or do you wait to end the suffering?

I'm looking for answers that no one has but I just need to vent.