Lonely...

[Roxy's CD]

Ok, this is kind of sad and depressing so if you happy and want to stay that way... LOL, this isn't the thread for you.

My mom and my half sister both have some sort of chemical imbalance. I'm not sure of the exact reasons why or consequences but I know for sure that my sister is supposed to be on medication. Her symptoms are mood swings, tempter tantrums and chronic depression.

Up until recently I thought that I would be fine. But I find myself lately feeling depressed, I just labelled it that yesterday. I work for myself so I'm at home a lot. I find myself sleeping a lot, or for no reason just being tired, apparently that is a sign of depression.

If my bf goes out and I'm left alone the whole time he's gone I'm incredibly lonely. He's suggested that I should go out, and find something to do. I have very few female friends. And no guy friends (my bf is extremely jealous, I'm the same way so I don't have a problem with it) The thing is thought, I just never feel like doing anything. Really the only things that are exciting in my week are both of the dogs lessons. I'm only 19, so must of the people my age go to the bars and drink etc... That's just not my scene. I like to stay at home and spend time with my boyfriend and my dogs.But if he's gone out, I feel obligated to stay at home with the dogs. I don't like leaving them alone, their used to us be around quite a bit. It's kind of an excuse but whatever.

I never used to be like this, it's really the past few months I've started feeling not neccesarily sad all the time, but just not interested in doing anything. I used to spend most of my time with friends (that have moved away for school) just doing what girls do... *sigh* I know I should just get out and do something but there's no real desire. My mom keeps telling me to go out because it's been so beautiful and nice out, and I just don't want to. I take the dogs out for walks late at night, it's cooler and some people give me trouble because Hades is a pitt.

I don't know what the point of this was exactly.... I guess I just had to see it somewhere to truly admit it...

 

[Kase]

Aww Roxy (((HUGS))). I'm so sorry that you are feeling depressed. If I was in Cananda now I'd get you out of the house, even though I'm not a big fan of bars and crowds. Your not alone Roxy, you have all of us here on Chaz .

I'd suggest going for some really nice long walks in the woods with the dogs, thats what I love to do but I know you said you only go walking at night.

I hope you feel better soon .

 

[Roxy's CD]

LOL, thanks Kase. I think it's just a phase. Because I'm home sooo much it's almost like a prison. WHen I used to GO to work I was never like this, always busy always doing something....

I think I'm just stuck in the routine of getting up and sometimes just not having anything to do. The jewlery business is going ok, but it's run out of the house, so I dont have to go anywhere. I don't have any horses right now so I don't have to go out to the barn everyday.... The only real things I look forward too is the dogs lessons on tuesday and wednesday! And believe it or not grocery shopping.. I know! How pathetic is that!!!?!?! LOL

I definitely feel better on Chaz. Everyone's so helpful when it comes to the dogs and so caring about other issues.

 

[Kase]

LOL, thanks Kase. I think it's just a phase. Because I'm home sooo much it's almost like a prison. WHen I used to GO to work I was never like this, always busy always doing something....

I think I'm just stuck in the routine of getting up and sometimes just not having anything to do. The jewlery business is going ok, but it's run out of the house, so I dont have to go anywhere. I don't have any horses right now so I don't have to go out to the barn everyday.... The only real things I look forward too is the dogs lessons on tuesday and wednesday! And believe it or not grocery shopping.. I know! How pathetic is that!!!?!?! LOL

I definitely feel better on Chaz. Everyone's so helpful when it comes to the dogs and so caring about other issues.

Hey it's not pathetic Roxy. I understand what your saying, if you work from home it is going to feel a little bit like a prison. Just think at least you get to be with the dogs .

 

[Roxy's CD]

LOL, sometimes I think they hate it! About once an hour I'm always making them work or do something..LOL. mom home=work for treats

haha.. Well Hades just loves the attention, he's such a hard little worker, Roxy just gets tired and gives me the look like, "Would you just give it up? Seriously, like I get it, I wanna go lie down now!" LOL

 

[Kase]

LOL, sometimes I think they hate it! About once an hour I'm always making them work or do something..LOL. mom home=work for treats

haha.. Well Hades just loves the attention, he's such a hard little worker, Roxy just gets tired and gives me the look like, "Would you just give it up? Seriously, like I get it, I wanna go lie down now!" LOL

I bet they are perfectly trained though . Would you ever consider getting another dog? I mean another dog in the house would mean you could spend even more time training.

 

[Roxy's CD]

LOL, don't even mention it !! HAHA ROFL

My bf has always wanted a Presa Canario. My trainer told me nope don't get one... But we looked into it anyways, to make a long story short the very responsible breeder told me that it proabably wasn't a good idea. They can't be left with other dogs unsupervised regardless of being brought up together.

The other thing is space. I live in a duplex, my place is huge a 3bdrm, but I only have access to the front yard, I live about 2 minutes away from two large parks though, but I would rather wait until we move out to our house before getting another one. After getting turned down about the Presa (for my bf), my special breed has always been the doberman... I just love them. So I may perhaps, spend a pretty penny to get a confirmation dog. The only problem with this is Roxy is soo jealous! I dont know if she'd put up with another puppy! We're lucky that Hades has such a submissive personality... They fit together perfectly!

Roxy=Bitch
Hades=Sweetheart

=Roxy pushes Hades around. Hades doesn't really mind that much! LOL

 

[Renee750il]

Roxy, you do sound like you are in a depression. It might be a very good idea to see about some counseling and possibly running some tests to see if you have some chemical imbalance that is showing up now. Even before you do that, though, please try joining a gym or taking some sort of physical exercise class; tai chi would be a good choice if there is a class in your area, especially if it is taught as a discipline along with the meditative aspects instead of just a series of exercises.

 

[Kase]

LOL poor Hades . Are you moving anytime soon? I hope you do get to get your dobe.

 

[Roxy's CD]

I was a member of the gym for about 3 months. I went faithfully everday for at least an hour. It definitely amped me up. I know it's what I need, I'm usually all about doing stuff... and now that I don't really have much to do I'm feeling lost, and then I've fallen into this rut. I'm thinking about going to do some volunteer work up at the humane society, although a couple of years I tried to volunteer and they were very picky... they didn't like the way I was personable with dogs/cats when I visited. They said they didn't want anyone to get close with the animals, incase they had to get put down or they were adopted.

What exactly do you think the tai chi would do Renee?

 

[Buddy'sParents]

I think it's just a phase. Because I'm home sooo much it's almost like a prison. WHen I used to GO to work I was never like this, always busy always doing something....

My hubby works from home and sometimes he can't wait to get out of the house. So, when it's time to go to the dog park, he's often rallying myself and Buddy to "let's go!!" And if we're having really off days, we have been known to stay as long as 3 hours. Buddy gets TON of play and hubby's not in the house. Being around good dogs and good people can be therapuetic (sp?).

And, I'm really sorry you're feeling so down. I would go with what Kase suggested... a walk in the park, woods, whatever you have close to you. Don't forget about your needs, don't let your home feel like a prison. Good luck and I hope you feel better soon!

Edit: Renee's idea is great! Excercise will make you feel lots better. But it is wise to get things checked out.

 

[filarotten]

Why don't you go have lunch with your friends occasionally? That's what I do. If forces me to get out of the house and back into civilization.

When you work at home it is easy to fall into cozy comfy pattern of working in your pjs until 2:00 pm. (I did this for awhile. lol) and making excuses for not getting out. But, you do need outside stimulation and contact out of the house. It really isn't healthy to stay cooped up too much, it can bring on mild depression without you even realizing it.

Hubby and I have decided to start doing some kind of martial arts, to help the mental and physical side of us both. He decided I was in depession and needed something to get my mind off problems and learn to meditate the stress away. So, I am going to try it.

 

[Roxy's CD]

That's exactly it though filarotten! I just come up with excuses. Lame excuses too. Like, I can't because of the dogs or, I had such a busy day.. lol which means (dog lessons, kids) LOL.

I didn't even realize it was happening either like you said. For the first bit after I quit my job and started working for myself I thought it was great! I got to relax, spend time with my dogs, didn't have any particular time to do anything. If I wanted to stay in my pj's all day I could etc. And then since my bf's been gone the past few days, I've just realized how bad it's gotten. it just kind of snuck up on me...

 

[filarotten]

It does sneak up...I never realized how much I had changed...I was so into not a da*n thing, just work, housework, dogs and any excuse I could think of not to leave the house. Until my son, bless his wicked heart told me I wasn't being me anymore. I was becoming a recluse...Then hubby chimed in. They tag teamed me.

Of course I objected...But, it made me stop and realize I really had withdrawn. Not a good thing for someone who has always been very outgoing. I always have enjoyed gardening, the dogs and staying home when I want, but I need socialization...just like the dogs.

There were days I didn't even comb my hair, just pulled it up. Ok, it's pulled up now, but I did comb it today.

 

[smkie]

I haven't read through the other posts, but i want to tell you it could be a sign of many things health related not necessarily a mood disorder. Blood sugar can truly reck havoc with one's feelings as well as an infection. I would make an appointment with your regular GP and tell him how you are feeling but not sure if it is a mood thingy or a phyiscal problem, that you feel out of sorts with yourself. Have him do a bloodwork just to make sure. each and every day is to precious to lose because of the body is not working correctly if there is something that can be done to help restore you to your normal life. I hope you feel better soon!

 

[bubbatd]

It's rough to sort out Roxy...I get too stagnant here too ....I even talk myself of having to go to the grocery sometimes. Glad I have my Chaz friends.

 

[Pepperchini]

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[Renee750il]

What exactly do you think the tai chi would do Renee?

Tai chi, when taught as a practice rather than just a series of physical exercises, gives you so many tools for centering your mind AND body - mental discipline as well as physical, along with good meditatitive tools that you can use effectively when you need to look inward to find answers.

 

[bubbatd]

I've thought about that for myself too.......................

 

[Roxy's CD]

Ahhh... I should look into it...I need physical exercise as well as mental. And it would give me something to do on my own. Thanks Renee!