It still hurts...

[Angel Chicken]

It has been 7 years since my grandpa died on Christmas day.

God, it still hurts... pretty bad...

All I keep hearing is "Joy to the World", which is the song they played at his funeral... and I find myself looking at puzzles ans stuff for him for Christmas...

Then, I remember, and it hits me like it did the day he died.

I am going this weekend to put some poinsettias on his grave. They were always his favorite flower, even when it wasn't Christmas time. I'll sit at his grave for awhile, and "talk" to him and my grandma. I have not been to their grave in a very long time.

Wish me luck... send good wishes to keep myself composed and be able to hold myself together when I go to his grave...

 

[MichelleJ]

Awww hang in there Angel. I know how you feel. I lost my Grandpa 3 years ago, just before Thanksgiving. It's still hard when the family gets together because we all keep waiting for him to show up. I think the hurt grows less with time, but we still miss the person just as much.

 

[Angel Chicken]

Your right Michelle, and it has gotten better over time.

But when Christmas comes it just comes back...


I feel better now though. I said a little prayer to him, and felt better after that. I looked at my Christmas tree and it made me smile, I felt all warm and fuzzy.

I think he stopped for a visit, knowing I was missing him

 

[Doberluv]

A-w-w-w......I missed this post before. I hope you're still feeling warm and fuzzy with your memories. It is hard, isn't it. Hope you're feeling more at peace too Michelle.

((((hugs))))

 

[Debi]

I think every family feels the loss of loved ones during the holidays. in the midst of all the celebrating, we have moments of great sadness. but I try to feel their presense. it's worse if the memory is on the actual day, of course. (((HUGS)))

 

[Angel Chicken]

Awww thanks guys.

It will get better... I have been so much into the Christmas cheer lately that I cannot be sad!! I just came back from the store with a fresh set of poinsettias to put on top the entertainment center.

I'll go Saturday or Sunday to his grave. I'm sure he'll love the poinsettias I am going to leave for him!

 

[Denaluvscorgis]

Awww AC...I'm so sorry. I know how you feel.....holiday's are really hard on me now that my parent's are gone! ((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

 

[Dulce Pit Bull]

Aww I'm sorry! I know how you feel.

My Grandpa is really sick, and is REALLY far away and I can't do anything about it.

I'm sorry about your Grandpa He's up there celebrating Christmas in his own way

 

[SiNNiK]

that sucks losing people that are close to you. i used to visit my Grandfather's grave alot too until i realized that if his soul is still around, it certainly wouldn't be at his grave, that place is BORING~!

hope you feel better.

 

[Kase]

Awwwww AC (((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))). My Grandad died suddenly 4 years ago and I still can't belive he's gone.

 

[nicco]

*sigh* {{{{{{(HUGS)}}}}}}