"Im sorry I don't feel sorry for you"

[iwantmypup]

ah gotta love her. My mother cares about me so much.
we got into an argument and I started coughing and crying and there were a couple seconds to where I couldn't breathe any air in....I eventually threw up. and my head hurts reallly really bad. My mom said "I'm sorry I don't feel sorry for you." "I'm not going to put up with this bullsh!t" Because its my fault I am like this, sick..Its my fault I am coughing and throwing up. I hate her I hate her I hate her. I have a feeling she doesn't want to be with my anymore and I really don't want to be with her. I waste too much money, I want to much, I ask for too much. I just want to $%^&ing die. And I don't want ANY of you to feel sorry for me, thats not why I am writing this. I just need to get it out and chaz is the first place I think of.

 

[Backward_Cinderella]

(((((((((((hug))))))))))))
It gets better. I went through a few years with my mom where I felt like that.

 

[bubbatd]

Keep venting !!! Does the heart good !

 

[ACooper]

I know exactly how you feel..........there were a few years there (when I was a teen) that my mom and I just CLASHED. I couldn't do anything right to please her (it seemed) and she couldn't do anything to please me either.

Now we are such good friends, but if you had asked me back then I would have said IMPOSSIBLE.

It will get better eventually. Until then, we are here to read, listen, and commiserate with you ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))

 

[RedyreRottweilers]

((((big hugs))))

 

[smkie]

((((((Hugs)))))))) do some breathing exercises, they will help calm you down and ease your head ache. Lay on the bed and pretend your trying try "break your belt" by inhaling deep until your belly rises.

 

[shadowfacedanes]

Sorry Ali. I can totally relate. My Mom and I did not get along whatsoever until well after I moved out and got away from her. Even then, it was rough for years. We get along now, but there are some things I will never forgive nor forget. I spent the majority of my life wondering why on earth she hated me so much, but later on I realized ya know, it wasn't me. Whatever it was that made her act that way towards me was NOT my fault, and whatever makes your Mom act the way she's acting isn't YOUR fault either.

Just try to relax the best you can and know that we're always here. If you ever need to talk to someone who's "been there, done that" feel free to PM me.

Hang in there.

 

[LauraLeigh]

I just want to $%^&ing die. And I don't want ANY of you to feel sorry for me, thats not why I am writing this. I just need to get it out and chaz is the first place I think of.

I hope the venting helps and we all know venting at chaz is a great way to take some stress off.... However I feel obligated to make sure the red part of your vent is just that.. venting because if you feel that way in ANY way shape or form for real... Please get help.... One of my best friends in College cried out to another friend and he thought our friend was only joking... He was not....

All my best wishes and I truly hope you are feeling better!!

 

[Dekka]

WOW Ali that really sucks! ((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))

 

[Kayla]

<Hugs> Just know she's the one who is wrong, not you

 

[Renee750il]

Ali, we're here and you know this is a place you can let it out. (((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))

Do you think your mother would go to some counseling with you? It's sounding like she needs some help to learn how to deal with what you are going through. I'd guess that she's probably feeling some guilt deep down, that she's not even consciously aware of, that somehow she's to blame for you being ill. It's not rational, but it's common for mothers to feel that way. She needs to learn how to understand how she feels and channel it instead of taking it out on you. You don't need the stress - that's the last thing you need.

 

[mustang_sally]

Hun, I am dealing with a 14 year old child who thinks she knows it all and has fallen in love with a 13 year old boy. I just found out that they have already started experimenting with "adult things" if you catch my drift and crap hit the fan! I said some things and she said some things and at one point we wanted to claw one anothers eyes out. You know what....through all of it I never stopped loving her. It too shall pass baby. I promise. Life is hard and growing up is much harder! I am still growing and learning and I am 32 years old. What helped us was to find a thing in common and use it to re-build a relationship. I love to run and she has to get ready for cross country so we started going to the gym together and slowly started to get closer. Find something that you both enjoy and lay down the gloves for a while. Have fun together and it will all fix itself! We also attend counseling together as a family once a week. Good Luck.