I NEVER go out because I always get made fun of or I feel like I don't fit in. I'm always worried that when I see people whispering that they're talking about me. Sometimes people are rude and just say things about me right in front of me and I wind up getting upset and leaving. So, it's been easier just to avoid the whole club scene.
Well, my cousin and his girlfriend and a few other friends are going to this... uh, well,...... a sort of establishment I have never been to before. I'm a bit worried about the crowd of people that will be there because I'm just not used to that kind of atmosphere. But I've been told by several people that this place treats people kind and the people I know that have been there all had a great time.
I'm just nervous that I will get made fun of or I won't fit in the seats they have. Or that I will feel so out of place or under dressed... I haven't been out socially in years. I really can't remember the last time I've been out. I even have jewelry on.. and I never wear jewelry anymore because I never feel pretty. I still don't feel pretty, but it feels kind of hip to wear jewelry...lol. Now I just gotta figure out something to do with my hair. I don't think I will bother with make up since I really suck at putting it on.
Oh, I feel like a teenager getting ready for a date.. this is awful. I just hate it that I am so nervous about it. It's almost like I'm expecting to have a bad time and be so self conscious that I won't allow myself to have a good time. I need someone to slap me and tell me I'll be fine and that I will have a wonderful time.
I just have to be real careful in the finance department. I know it's only a ten dollar cover charge per person and I'm sure the drinks are 5 bucks a pop. I will have to just pay attention to how much we spend. Oh gosh.. I got butterflies in my belly...lolol
Well, my cousin and his girlfriend and a few other friends are going to this... uh, well,...... a sort of establishment I have never been to before. I'm a bit worried about the crowd of people that will be there because I'm just not used to that kind of atmosphere. But I've been told by several people that this place treats people kind and the people I know that have been there all had a great time.
I'm just nervous that I will get made fun of or I won't fit in the seats they have. Or that I will feel so out of place or under dressed... I haven't been out socially in years. I really can't remember the last time I've been out. I even have jewelry on.. and I never wear jewelry anymore because I never feel pretty. I still don't feel pretty, but it feels kind of hip to wear jewelry...lol. Now I just gotta figure out something to do with my hair. I don't think I will bother with make up since I really suck at putting it on.
Oh, I feel like a teenager getting ready for a date.. this is awful. I just hate it that I am so nervous about it. It's almost like I'm expecting to have a bad time and be so self conscious that I won't allow myself to have a good time. I need someone to slap me and tell me I'll be fine and that I will have a wonderful time.
I just have to be real careful in the finance department. I know it's only a ten dollar cover charge per person and I'm sure the drinks are 5 bucks a pop. I will have to just pay attention to how much we spend. Oh gosh.. I got butterflies in my belly...lolol