I'm... Done

[sparks19]

I really think I've just reached the end of my rope today.

I am in such a p!ss poor mood I just want to cry but I'm not going to. no time for that.

I just want to be home... but now that's probably not going to happen for like another month... that soon if we are lucky.

I"m tired of running all over God's creation and getting nothing done. So far I've been here for over two weeks and I've only gotten ONE THING DONE. my license.

Today (my birthday... what ajoke) I've been trying to get all the stuff done for Hannahs citizenship certificate for Canada. I had to go get the paperwork Brian faxed, go to a notary public to get a certified copy of her birth certificate and get passport type photos done of Hannah. So far? I got the faxed papers... that's it. went to TWO different places to get the passport photos done and Hannah just wasn't gonna co-operate. I'm sorry... but how in the F$CK are you supposed to get a 21 month old child to sit still, look directly ahead at the camera, no smile and keep their mouth closed . I guess it's possible but it just ain't happening today. and the notary public we were going to apparently moved so the address in the phone book was incorrect so we drove all over looking for them and never found them. so I got nothing done.

I'm so tired, hannah is tired, I don't feel well, and now I have no **** idea when I am ever going to be able to go home.

theres so much more on my mind but I've already typed out a novel.

I'm just at my wit's end.

 

[Zoom]

Wow, Sparks, if anyone has a reason to be in a bad mood, you sure do!!

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))

Happy birthday anyway?

 

[sparks19]

thank you zoom (((HUGS)))

 

[Renee750il]

((((((((((HUGS))))))))) Tanya.

Have a good long cry on the phone when Brian gets in from work. The two of you can then argue over which one of you misses the other one most.

Remember, some days you eat the bear and some days the bear eats you . . . but always carry a steak knife and some bear sauce to boost your odds.

 

[JessLough]

Awww Sparks (((hugs))) you'll get through it! It's just stressful being away from home/away from loved ones for an extended period of time

Happy birthday!!

 

[bubbatd]

I'm so sorry Sparks ...... does all this paper work make you stay there for legal reasons ???

 

[sparks19]

((((((((((HUGS))))))))) Tanya.

Have a good long cry on the phone when Brian gets in from work. The two of you can then argue over which one of you misses the other one most.

can't... I won't be here. we will be out AGAIN. we are going over to my sisters for dinner... at least she has a pool and air conditioning.

That's another thing putting me in a bad mood. it's like 30 degrees out and my dad's house is a sauna

 

[sparks19]

I'm so sorry Sparks ...... does all this paper work make you stay there for legal reasons ???

it's just stuff that I gotta be here to do and to get the cards and such.

 

[eddieq]

Well, Happy Birthday, sweetheart. Hope it gets better for you.

 

[Renee750il]

Oh, that's not good.

I'll be Brian is a total GROUCHASS by now

 

[sparks19]

I'm just so overwhelmed. why the hell did I even come up here in the first place.

if I can't get these passport type photos done of hannah... I'm gonna be stuck her for f&cking EVER.

I'm sick of it.

 

[Renee750il]

I don't know why they're being so picky about Hannah's pictures. She's not going to look the same in six months anyway

Dumbass bureaucrats.

 

[ACooper]

What a mess.

((((((((HUGS))))))) It'll all work out Spark. Just take a breath and step back. Hug that little girl and enjoy a good play session with her........if that don't take your mind off of the crap, I don't know what will, LOL

 

[smkie]

I am so sorry. I hope something happens in this day to give your Birthday a little sparkle. (((HUGS)))

 

[Puckstop31]

We talked....

Things are a little better. Options on the table and such.

We will be togther again before you know it.


Happy Birthday babe. We will celebrate it properly (get your mind out of the gutters, you know who) when you get home. Besides, 28 ain't nothing special no how.

 

[Sweet72947]

I don't know why they're being so picky about Hannah's pictures. She's not going to look the same in six months anyway

Dumbass bureaucrats.

Well, they have this facial recognition software now. You have to just look at the camera with a straight face because it can't recognize you if you smile or whatever. At least, that's how it is with driver's license photos now. I wouldn't be surprised if they have that for passport photos now too. I don't know how they expect that to work with babies though.

((hugs)) to Sparks.

 

[Renee750il]

Hey, and this is nowhere near as bad as all that mess trying to get one or the other of you into one country or the other. That was BAD . . . It's all cake now

 

[sparks19]

well... I feel like the buzzkill today but...

I'm still sad. It's just this horrible feeling. I haven't been this sad in a very long time. I don't know how else to describe it. I'm just... sad. depressed.

right now I'm going through my day just faking it because I don't want to have explain everything when my dad asks "whats wrong" I just don't want to, so i"m just staring out the window when we go places and giving a fake half assed laugh when he says somethign funny. I just want to lock myself up in my room but I can't becuase I have a child that needs to be cared for.

I just can't think positive right now, I can't chin up, or buck up, or look at the bright side or whatever. I just can't. I'm sure tomorrow will be another day and I will be back to normal but today I am just flat out depressed and feeling completely hopeless. I know I sound like a whiner... and I AM a whiner right now. just at this very moment in time NOTHING is going to make me feel better. I feel... defeated.

 

[sparks19]

Hey, and this is nowhere near as bad as all that mess trying to get one or the other of you into one country or the other. That was BAD . . . It's all cake now

yeah...e xcept now there is a child being seperated from one parent or the other for the time being... and this trip is taking it's toll on her. I don't know what to do for her. all she wants to do is sleep and no matter how much she sleeps it's not enough. she's teething, she's moody, she's exhausted... and I am the ONLY one to care for her.

 

[Renee750il]

You know what, Tanya? You get to feel however you need to feel. ((((((((HUGS)))))))