The clinic I work at offered me a full-time job today. They told me "everyone has nothing but good things to say about you, you've been a Godsend." I should be thrilled, I worked hard for this, I've been wanting this for over a year now. But all I can think is.... omg, I need to get out of there. Now.
I've been working there forever as a kennel assistant, and the past 2 months I have been working as a part-time vet tech. And in those 2 months I have fully realized that I DO NOT want to be a tech. I already hate doing it 2 days a week... the thought of adding on an additional 2 days sends me into a panic. But I told them I would do it, because what else do you say when something like that is sprung upon you without warning? They're excited and they think I'm excited, because I'm sure in their minds this is my ideal scenario - I stuck it out long enough with them, and now they finally have an opening for me. I didn't see this coming, honestly. In fact, I thought they'd be ending my part-time stint real soon here, now that we're hitting the quieter time of year.
I want to go back to school. I've already applied and have been accepted to start in the winter. I WISH I had it in me to stick out this job, for the money. A FT job with benefits making more than minimum wage is foreign to me. But I don't want to and wouldn't be able to if I go to school. Part of me thinks I should just go back to my pet store job and take as many hours as they will give me, but gosh the hours suck and that's a significant dip in money.
I just don't know. I came home and cried because I feel so conflicted and don't know what I'm doing.
I've been working there forever as a kennel assistant, and the past 2 months I have been working as a part-time vet tech. And in those 2 months I have fully realized that I DO NOT want to be a tech. I already hate doing it 2 days a week... the thought of adding on an additional 2 days sends me into a panic. But I told them I would do it, because what else do you say when something like that is sprung upon you without warning? They're excited and they think I'm excited, because I'm sure in their minds this is my ideal scenario - I stuck it out long enough with them, and now they finally have an opening for me. I didn't see this coming, honestly. In fact, I thought they'd be ending my part-time stint real soon here, now that we're hitting the quieter time of year.
I want to go back to school. I've already applied and have been accepted to start in the winter. I WISH I had it in me to stick out this job, for the money. A FT job with benefits making more than minimum wage is foreign to me. But I don't want to and wouldn't be able to if I go to school. Part of me thinks I should just go back to my pet store job and take as many hours as they will give me, but gosh the hours suck and that's a significant dip in money.
I just don't know. I came home and cried because I feel so conflicted and don't know what I'm doing.