This is the hardest post I've ever had to write in my life.
My health has taken a turn for the worse and none of my asthma or allergy medications are really helping me anymore. The dr's don't even suggest allergy shots at this time because the condition of my lungs are not good and the shots have to build up over the years.
I have done absolutely everything I can to keep my family together and I've pumped myself full of every medication possible. There is no carpet in my house, no curtains, the babies have their own room to sleep in each night that's cleaned daily and bedding is washed also. I've done every research into allergies/asthma and what I can do. I've done everything.
It helped at first and now nothing is working anymore. It's killing me to write this and I swore that I never would ever come to a forum to vent and cry, especially over something as devastating as this.
I have seen a million rehoming posts and they never seen to turn out positive and I'm sure people will think I shouldn't have gotten dogs in the first place or that I'm lying or a bad dog owner.
I just have to get this off of my chest that I love these dogs like they are my children and my family. They have traveled with us to get married (being our only guests) and their welfare and happiness is the ONLY thing that really matters to me in this life.
I thought about letting myself get sicker and just ignoring the problem, but what good will I be to them then? When I can't even get out of bed to take them for a walk, or can't pet them without breaking out into hives?
I refuse to let their quality of life suffer over my limitations and to be selfish and hold on to them while I can't be the kind of owner I have been and the one I always promised them I would be.
I guess all I am asking for is some support and help while I go through this process. I'm already second guessing if I should move forward with it.
The thing that hurts me the most is that here I know they will always be safe, loved, cared for and no matter how much I interview someone, I'm not sure I'll ever fully trust them with my babies.
So please, any words of wisdom or any recommendations would really help me out here.
I have contacted a local rescue to possibly do a courtesy listing and to ask for their help in finding the absolute best home.
I just don't know how to be able to trust anyone with my kids, no matter how many vet references, home checks, questions I could possibly ask.
I'm just so lost right now..
My health has taken a turn for the worse and none of my asthma or allergy medications are really helping me anymore. The dr's don't even suggest allergy shots at this time because the condition of my lungs are not good and the shots have to build up over the years.
I have done absolutely everything I can to keep my family together and I've pumped myself full of every medication possible. There is no carpet in my house, no curtains, the babies have their own room to sleep in each night that's cleaned daily and bedding is washed also. I've done every research into allergies/asthma and what I can do. I've done everything.
It helped at first and now nothing is working anymore. It's killing me to write this and I swore that I never would ever come to a forum to vent and cry, especially over something as devastating as this.
I have seen a million rehoming posts and they never seen to turn out positive and I'm sure people will think I shouldn't have gotten dogs in the first place or that I'm lying or a bad dog owner.
I just have to get this off of my chest that I love these dogs like they are my children and my family. They have traveled with us to get married (being our only guests) and their welfare and happiness is the ONLY thing that really matters to me in this life.
I thought about letting myself get sicker and just ignoring the problem, but what good will I be to them then? When I can't even get out of bed to take them for a walk, or can't pet them without breaking out into hives?
I refuse to let their quality of life suffer over my limitations and to be selfish and hold on to them while I can't be the kind of owner I have been and the one I always promised them I would be.
I guess all I am asking for is some support and help while I go through this process. I'm already second guessing if I should move forward with it.
The thing that hurts me the most is that here I know they will always be safe, loved, cared for and no matter how much I interview someone, I'm not sure I'll ever fully trust them with my babies.
So please, any words of wisdom or any recommendations would really help me out here.
I have contacted a local rescue to possibly do a courtesy listing and to ask for their help in finding the absolute best home.
I just don't know how to be able to trust anyone with my kids, no matter how many vet references, home checks, questions I could possibly ask.
I'm just so lost right now..