Thank you, so much. Everyone.
This relationship caused me to push a lot of people away. I keep to myself now, and I guess for good at the moment until I manage to get the courage to apologize to a lot of people I used to hold so dear.
I know so many people have it so much worse, it makes me feel guilty for putting energy into this the way I am. I'm learning, still, about people in general, which I do not do well with. I guess that can be a flaw; spend you life revolved around animals, and then open up to people so willingly...it can cause a horrible rip in your heart that no suture can ever mend. Not to mention..trust issues, which were already there, re-opened.
I'm just glad I didn't get married and end up having a divorce, I know I'm too young for that. Some even tell me I'm too young to know what love is, but, I just can't even see love being based on age. Age can't tell you what you feel inside.
I dread tomorrow, when I have to walk into my normal places, and know that everyone will notice the change. I'm usually happy and talkative...but when I get this way, it's like a vacuum sucked out my energy. Ugh, I need to stop beating myself up!
