It's really interesting to hear other peoples stories.
I am not diagnosed with anything other then "chronic-hyperventilation" which I think is a symptom of a anxiety/mental illness,they told me to "try and relax...be less stressed" that's the only help I've got.I probably should go back but I don't even know where to start with what goes on in my head.
It affects me everyday,the norm being I can't breathe,my chest in uncomfortable, then it could also lead to anxiety about stupid things,being weird and crazy,feeling awkward,working myself up,the worst way my day can go is a panic attack,also some sort of hysterical break down which ends with me going to bed exhausted from tears.I can't explain my symptoms,they don't even make sense to me/I can't word it,sometimes weird things like feeling like i haven't spoken that day,or thoughts in my head that I can't get out of my head.I can NOT talk about my feelings.its not an option,I'd rather die.I used to self harm.These kind of things are hard to explain to people who haven't experience it,there are somethings I can't "relax" about,or just "don't think about it".
Maybe I have schizophrenia?My sister(half sister) seems to have some of the same symptoms too.We talk about it.My BF lets me talk and doesn't tel me I'm crazy.Their the only people I "talk" too,and even that is limited.
I need to speak to someone about it soon I guess,before I have a mental breakdown at 30.
Having Coco helps me a lot,having to walk and being physically tired at the end of the day is important.Having her around to stroke relaxes me.
Mental Illness in general suck,people make way for someone in a wheelchair,everyone is aware of cancer,no one understands mental illness.