Oh Nikki, I'm so so sorry
I've lost two childhood pets without being able to make it home to say good-bye. I know what it's like to blame yourself for not being there with them when they go. It's a horrible feeling. They gave you so much, you feel terrible not getting to be there with them. But he knew, he understands. Frankie knew exactly how much you loved him and how important he was to you. Love transcends.