Can't It Just Go Away?!

[Juicy]

The memory of watching Lucky get killed . Last night I get a flashback of the moment the car ran over him and I hardly couldn't go to sleep from crying. Sometimes I just wish all my memories of Lucky just go away. If I think of the good times we had with each other, I just start missing him like crazy, wishing he was still here. And sure rainbow bridge is comforting, but no one really knows what happen when we die. And I hate the fact that he had to die so young and so painfully. I mean if he had died an old dog in his sleep, I probably wouldn't be feeling as bad as I am feeling now. I just wish he had experience a little more. Sometimes I resent having Pepe and how Pepe is experiencing more than Lucky did, sometimes I feel I've betrayed Lucky by getting Pepe. I hope he knows I miss him and if only wishes came true, and he would be with me right now. And it beinging a hit and run makes it worst, I want to know why couldn't they stop, why need they have to keep going, they could of just stopped as soon as they hit him, not ran over him, he might of still been alive. And the worst part of it is guilt, the ''if only''. If I had a leash on him this would of never happened, but its to late for if only The only comfort I get is knowing that his last two days were happy, eating his favorite food, chicken and going to the dog park and going on long walks, getting belly rubs, and sleeping with me. When people ofer me sympathy its okay, but they just don't know how much it kills me inside, not just the loss but witnessing the whole thing.

 

[AusCatDogs_4Ever]

Awww, that must have been horrible. ((hugs)). I'm sure he is still with you in spirit, probably beside you right now, it's not your fault, and I'm sure he doesn't feel betrayed. I hope you feel better

 

[Kase]

I understand how awful it would have been to live through that and I'm sorry you had too. Don't feel guilty, he won't think you've betrayed him. He's still with you even if you can't see him .

 

[bubbatd]

I doubt if it will ever go away . Try to think of the happy times. Try to forgive yourself too.

 

[Muddy4paws]

Im so sorry to hear about your loss it must be devestatating witnessing that happening and I cant imagine what you must of been going through, Im a true believer that there is a spirit world that we go to when we die and I take comfort in knowing that my RB dogs are all living healthy and well like puppies, You cant blame yourself for what has happened, you will beat yourself up about it too much, maybe someone up there just wanted an angel back?

You should focus on the good times with your pup and dont feel bad about getting another dog, I'm sure he would of wanted his mum to be happy and Im sure he wouldn't feel betrayal because I dont even know this but I'm sure the time he spent with you was the best time of his life, Im sure you showed him so much love and affection.. Try to think of him at the RB chewing his way through a big bowl of chicken

I know losing a dog is devestating and if you ever need anyone to talk to feel free to pm me at any time
{{Hugs}}

 

[Lily]

I'm so sorry ((Hugs)) I know how you feel, when I was five we had a dog named Cody and he was a really nice dog. I used to be scared to go outside by my self, and Cody would come and sit next to me. It was almost like he knew I was scared. A year later he died of cancer I still cry sometimes.

 

[neko12_48767]

I give you hugges. I now how it feels to lose a dog by a car. We lost our dog it got out and hit and my sister and brother blamed it on me. So i give you lot lot lots lots lots lots on hugges.

 

[Juicy]

Thanks a lot you guys. Yeah I hate it when they take the blame on you, like that's the last thing you need to hear, ''it was your fault'', like if I wanted it to happen

 

[lpollockandrsn]

I can only imagine how horifying that must have been for you. I am so sorry. Hold on to the good times and try to remember it isn't Pepe's fault. He needs you just as much. You need each other.

 

[Carolyn]

Hugs to you, It must be horrendous

It will never go away, but it will get easier. When you get the reliving thingie, try and do some deep breathing, or meditation. It's a wonderful tool

Good thoughts and hugs

 

[usurp]

Time will make things easier but you will never forget. I don't anyone could forget. I have had 3 traumatising exeriences my self with 3 different dogs and I still remember everyone of them as if it just happened 5 minutes ago.

Back in 2000 my dog got run over by a car, he survived but the site of him in pain and bleeding is something that I can never erase from my head.

Last year I had to put another dog of mine to sleep. He had been our family pet for over 8 years. I still can't forget the night we took him to the vet.

This is the last picture I took of him before we went to the vet

Two months ago I accidently stepped on my new puppys paw and fractured it, I still cant get over the sound of my puppy screaming in pain out of my head.

Its sad we can't forget about these moments. What I would advise you to do is not to think about the dog at all, no happy thoughts and no sad thoughts.. not for a long time atleast. happy thoughts will just remind you of the sad ones.. I hope it gets better for you..

 

[Katkoota]

so sorry to read that