my "adopted" big brother came up to me last night randomly and said not to worry about getting pregnant. it's out of my hands and God has a baby that is meant for me, but it needs to happen in His best timing, and to stop worrying and trying to do everything out of my own strength and get myself ready [this means building my marriage, improving myself as a person, learning more about life, etc] and it will happen when it's the baby's time.
something that helped me not to sweat it was realizing that doctors have shown that some women fixate on being pregnant so much that they start giving themselves pregnancy symptoms, make their periods late, etc. some women have "false pregnancies" where they even start gaining stomach weight like if they were pregnant. this false pregnancy is such a strong thing that there have even been men that it has happened to!
so i was like "crap! i need to distract myself!!"