She was undergoing hormone therapy when I first met her - she got her surgery around a year later with other "changes" occurring during and after the procedure. She's tall, slim, beautiful and more stunning looking than even "naturally" born women. People's eyes nearly pop out if they hear she's trans.
She's not a person without scandal - people told me really nasty things about her, people said she had "intentions" with me so on and so forth. But I disregarded all of it and I gained a beautiful, wise, generous to no limits, infinitely sweet, and incredible friend. I can't help but think back to that time though and moments between us throughout the years...that the part about her having "intentions" with me - could have been partially true.
She was quite possessive in the beginning; Insecure in general but she would send me messages or call me randomly asking me what I was doing, where I was at, could I chat etc. If I would say I was out at dinner with someone else or with friends her voice would tense up or sink in disappointment, I'd ask her if she was ok or if something was wrong after; "No, I'm ok..." she'd reply.
If however I said I was alone or at home or just off work or something she'd perk up and ask if she could meet me or could I pick her up or could I buy her dinner or go over to watch DVD's with her... And for some reason she was quite protective over me against other girls - but she wasn't threatened (as much) or felt as bad towards my bf's or guys that I socialized or went out with. She hasn't ONCE tried to sabotage a relationship of mine - romantic or otherwise, but has expressed her displeasure at some of my other gfs and my spending time with them (it didn't go down well, I stood my ground and she didn't really back down either..) as well as telling me to quit one guy or OUR friendship was over - I chose the friendship and the guy ended up being a total creep so it was fine.
I found these habits abit odd and perhaps even odder when she carried on with them when she had a boyfriend of her own later. I chose to put alot of it down to the hormone therapy and general insecurity, but looking back now I can't help but think...she perhaps may indeed have had something more than friendship in her heart for me.
However she was supportive of my dating, gave excellent advice on my relationship troubles, and even acted as a incredible go-between person when I froze my bf at the time out. She encouraged him to spend more time with me and see things in my way.... But she was still really possessive of me during that time as well. So it's such a contradiction and will remain abit of a mystery I guess.
We have NOT done anything sexual, I've seen her nude once in a change room and she's seen me topless twice. Both were in non-sexual situations. She's kissed me (cheeks, forehead, face etc and lips a few times) and vice versa - certainly our friendship has been/is very intimate and close - it's not so in a romantic context at all. At least in my perspective, can't quite say for her...
Anyways, I thank everyone profusely for advice, patience, and for listening to me and reading this thread and I hope my next update is a happy one about her =)