at some point this week I am (supposedly) going to sit down with the PD and we'll see what happens. I guess I am hoping he offers me a position. it means more money, and nothing else I have applied for has panned out, so this is pretty much my only option at the moment. I don't know. I wish I was more excited about it. I would like it to happen so I can make some major changes in my life, work and otherwise, but I'm not like OMG OMG NEW JOB SO EXCITING or anything. there are definitely some perks to it besides a pay raise. but I've really lost my passion for my day job, and it sucks, because once upon a time I honestly did love my job. who knows, maybe this will make me love my job again. I guess it's possible. not even sure what exactly I'm asking for vibes for. plus I think chaz vibes must be a jinx for me or something haha. I guess I really just need some prayers for strength to keep getting out of bed every day really. I am in constant need of strength these days.