The Venting Thread
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Mu woke me up by puking on the floor and there's a piece of bone in it. I don't know what that means but it can't be good. 
Honestly, unless she shows signs of distress, u wouldn't be too worried. At least, I never was with Rosey. Sometimes she just swallowed a small piece of bone too fast, rather than chewing it all/breaking it up.
I haven't felt this shitty in a long time...
Got called into work for check ins for surgery this morning, told my boss that I had to be at work at my other job at 9am and couldn't stay past 8:30. Of course, he's not there in the morning so he doesn't care what I say. Techs tell me at 8:30 when check in line is empty that I have to stay and wait for no shows (two dogs didn't come in on time). I tell them I have to work, they say I have to stay. Five minutes goes by and I tell them I need to leave again, they tell me I have to call the owners because they don't know how to work our phone system.
Finally left at 8:40, had to go home, change out of my dress clothes, let the dogs out, feed them, get food for myself, and load up a dog/gear for work. I had one minute once I got home, was able to change my pants and throw Recon in the car, already running late. Boss at second job told me after being 3 minutes late twice that if I was late one more time she was firing me. Running 4 minutes late at this point, I'm speeding and risking a ticket to try to get to work, while crying because I'm so stressed and agitated.
Get to work on time, thankfully, and members that were behind me on the way here berate me for driving so fast. I don't want to tell them that I would have been fired had I not arrived on time, so I take it and go back inside and cry more.
Then an ex friend who had lent me a few hundred dollars about a month ago asks Hannah about us getting a new dog. We got a new foster last night, and he takes that to mean I paid for it, so he wants his money back this weekend. I don't have his money, and he knew it would be a while before I had it all saved up to give him. He wanted it all back in full, if I was able to make payments it would have been done. But bills and vet trips came up that I paid for instead, because he wasn't in a hurry. Now he is so I have to sell my camera by the weekend or find something else of value to sell to make the money to pay him back or else idk. Everyone is asking me "what will he do if you don't pay him back?" probably make me feel like a peice of **** publicly... which really isn't that bad, but it's the worst feeling in the world when someone asks you to pay them back and you just... can't.
So now I'm hungry and sitting at work trying to figure out how I can come up with this money to give him without having to sell my camera... which two people have already offered to buy for about half of what I paid for it.
Got called into work for check ins for surgery this morning, told my boss that I had to be at work at my other job at 9am and couldn't stay past 8:30. Of course, he's not there in the morning so he doesn't care what I say. Techs tell me at 8:30 when check in line is empty that I have to stay and wait for no shows (two dogs didn't come in on time). I tell them I have to work, they say I have to stay. Five minutes goes by and I tell them I need to leave again, they tell me I have to call the owners because they don't know how to work our phone system.
Finally left at 8:40, had to go home, change out of my dress clothes, let the dogs out, feed them, get food for myself, and load up a dog/gear for work. I had one minute once I got home, was able to change my pants and throw Recon in the car, already running late. Boss at second job told me after being 3 minutes late twice that if I was late one more time she was firing me. Running 4 minutes late at this point, I'm speeding and risking a ticket to try to get to work, while crying because I'm so stressed and agitated.
Get to work on time, thankfully, and members that were behind me on the way here berate me for driving so fast. I don't want to tell them that I would have been fired had I not arrived on time, so I take it and go back inside and cry more.
Then an ex friend who had lent me a few hundred dollars about a month ago asks Hannah about us getting a new dog. We got a new foster last night, and he takes that to mean I paid for it, so he wants his money back this weekend. I don't have his money, and he knew it would be a while before I had it all saved up to give him. He wanted it all back in full, if I was able to make payments it would have been done. But bills and vet trips came up that I paid for instead, because he wasn't in a hurry. Now he is so I have to sell my camera by the weekend or find something else of value to sell to make the money to pay him back or else idk. Everyone is asking me "what will he do if you don't pay him back?" probably make me feel like a peice of **** publicly... which really isn't that bad, but it's the worst feeling in the world when someone asks you to pay them back and you just... can't.
So now I'm hungry and sitting at work trying to figure out how I can come up with this money to give him without having to sell my camera... which two people have already offered to buy for about half of what I paid for it.
Why do people read Dog Snobs and complain that it's not nice and they can't use it as a class hand out? What about that blog makes you think it's designed for class hand outs? It's dog people who know better complaining to dog people who know better, that's the point. If you don't like that, read something else.
And write your own **** hand out.
And write your own **** hand out.
Have been stuck in "Everything is pointless and I'm a useless miserable person" land for nearly a month now. It's affecting my job, my home life, everything. Don't know how to shake myself out of it and don't trust my current doctor to prescribe me anything after the whole Aviane debacle.
And I'm still not able to sleep for more than a few hours at a time, even with mixing lots of alcohol and sleeping pills. :wall:
And I'm still not able to sleep for more than a few hours at a time, even with mixing lots of alcohol and sleeping pills. :wall:
That's really reassuring - she's always snarfed her food and I've never worried about it until recently. She barfed up what looked like a piece of hoof about a month ago and I took her out on leash until I was positive she was peeing and pooping okay. The hoof piece was green and rubbery and weird and I think it's fed my anxiety about this morning. I know it's not a blockage (at least not a full one) because everything's moving okay, she's eating normally, and she's all bright eyed and energetic.
Y U MAKE ME WORRY DOG. I don't even know what the vet would tell me. I'm pretty sure an x ray would be the only way to find anything and we would have to sedate her for it, which I hate doing. Blurgh.
Y U MAKE ME WORRY DOG. I don't even know what the vet would tell me. I'm pretty sure an x ray would be the only way to find anything and we would have to sedate her for it, which I hate doing. Blurgh.
I really, really think she'll be fine. Watch her, of course, but IME these things happen and most of the time, dogs are pretty well designed to bring back up what they can't pass. Every once in while my idiots puke up something - I used to freak but now I watch and wait, and they're always fine. Same thing happens to dogs at work, they'll come for daycare and vomit up something insane, like part of a TV remote or a silicone basting brush, we tell the owner but the dog is always fine. Not that blockages don't happen (because oh boy, do they) but I think when it comes to dogs eating weird stuff, they usually manage to either bring it back up or pass it.
FWIW the time that Macky needed a drumstick cut out of her stomach, she was in obvious, unmistakable distress. Drooling, disoriented, panting heavily, etc.
FWIW the time that Macky needed a drumstick cut out of her stomach, she was in obvious, unmistakable distress. Drooling, disoriented, panting heavily, etc.
Sadly, I have tried. It's like this just sets off his rage for wanting his money back, and even after I explain it, he either doesn't believe me or is still so angry/worked up about it that he still wants it back.
Silver lining- guy I'm seeing is a wedding photographer and wants me to sell my camera anyway. Said he could easily find me a nicer camera for cheaper within the next month or so. And I have an awesome new job opportunity, as well. I guess sometimes bad things do happen for good reasons?
Silver lining- guy I'm seeing is a wedding photographer and wants me to sell my camera anyway. Said he could easily find me a nicer camera for cheaper within the next month or so. And I have an awesome new job opportunity, as well. I guess sometimes bad things do happen for good reasons?
((((HUGS))))
As bad as it sounds, you'll have to get used to it. That's how it always was when Dan was in training or deployed. Not that you shouldn't be able to talk to him about anything, but until you have somewhat of a schedule down, it just sucks. We never really touched on big issues over the phone during that time, because nothing is worse than having a serious talk and then suddenly he has to go, or worse, during a deployment, the line goes dead and you don't hear from him for two weeks. Write it down instead. It's much easier to respond to an issue in an email, than exchanging hasty words between coming and going. You'll both have the time to put thought into it and it will decrease any possible stress and resentment coming out of a conversation.
For the little things that you want to tell him but can't, try a journal! I was never much into journaling... But that really helped me feel close to Dan when I couldn't get in touch with him... And it was fun for him to read later on
As bad as it sounds, you'll have to get used to it. That's how it always was when Dan was in training or deployed. Not that you shouldn't be able to talk to him about anything, but until you have somewhat of a schedule down, it just sucks. We never really touched on big issues over the phone during that time, because nothing is worse than having a serious talk and then suddenly he has to go, or worse, during a deployment, the line goes dead and you don't hear from him for two weeks. Write it down instead. It's much easier to respond to an issue in an email, than exchanging hasty words between coming and going. You'll both have the time to put thought into it and it will decrease any possible stress and resentment coming out of a conversation.
For the little things that you want to tell him but can't, try a journal! I was never much into journaling... But that really helped me feel close to Dan when I couldn't get in touch with him... And it was fun for him to read later on
Not feeling motivated to study right now, even though work is super slow..
Also have ALL THE PUPPY want. Sometimes, I really wish I wouldn't have backed out on babydog next year. I probably could get back on, but the timing isn't going to change. :/ But puppy. And I have the perfect jobs for puppy raising.
Also have ALL THE PUPPY want. Sometimes, I really wish I wouldn't have backed out on babydog next year. I probably could get back on, but the timing isn't going to change. :/ But puppy. And I have the perfect jobs for puppy raising.
((((HUGS))))
As bad as it sounds, you'll have to get used to it. That's how it always was when Dan was in training or deployed. Not that you shouldn't be able to talk to him about anything, but until you have somewhat of a schedule down, it just sucks. We never really touched on big issues over the phone during that time, because nothing is worse than having a serious talk and then suddenly he has to go, or worse, during a deployment, the line goes dead and you don't hear from him for two weeks. Write it down instead. It's much easier to respond to an issue in an email, than exchanging hasty words between coming and going. You'll both have the time to put thought into it and it will decrease any possible stress and resentment coming out of a conversation.
For the little things that you want to tell him but can't, try a journal! I was never much into journaling... But that really helped me feel close to Dan when I couldn't get in touch with him... And it was fun for him to read later on
As bad as it sounds, you'll have to get used to it. That's how it always was when Dan was in training or deployed. Not that you shouldn't be able to talk to him about anything, but until you have somewhat of a schedule down, it just sucks. We never really touched on big issues over the phone during that time, because nothing is worse than having a serious talk and then suddenly he has to go, or worse, during a deployment, the line goes dead and you don't hear from him for two weeks. Write it down instead. It's much easier to respond to an issue in an email, than exchanging hasty words between coming and going. You'll both have the time to put thought into it and it will decrease any possible stress and resentment coming out of a conversation.
For the little things that you want to tell him but can't, try a journal! I was never much into journaling... But that really helped me feel close to Dan when I couldn't get in touch with him... And it was fun for him to read later on
And yes, journaling is a God send. That is what kept me sane during RTC, and I still do it, just not as frequently now. But I really don't know how I would have survived without it.
