geeze this is so heart breaking.
My vent for the morning... It's looking like it's more than likely going to need to be my transmission that needs replacing....
That's our entire savings right now if we were to get it fixed and we are supposed to be saving up to move out and we have already stayed in this living situation longer than we were supposed to and I'm sure they are ready for us to move. We were finally getting close to saving up what we need to move and now this?
It's almost not worth it to even fix the transmission. My car only has about 90,000 miles on it and I did some reading last night and found out that early transmission failures are pretty common in ford escapes... crappppp. I can't handle this. If we replace it they are just going to put the same type of transmission in right? So... that one will probably fail early on as well right? We are better off just getting a replacement vehicle, but if we try to trade it in with a failed transmission then more than likely we wont get much for it and will owe the remainder PLUS a new loan which will end up being way more a month than we can afford. The other option is getting a used car from a private owner off craigslist or something and that option makes me sick to my stomach since I don't know the first thing about cars to even know how to begin looking at older used vehicles from private owners.
Today is mine and Josh's 3 year anniversary. It's supposed to be a fun day and we are supposed to celebrate... how can we? How can we celebrate and do something fun when all of this is happening? I'm TIRED of being in debt. I'm TIRED of not having a home of our own. I'm TIRED of everything bad that can happen ALWAYS happening to me. I can't EVER seem to get past it and live a comfortable life. I hate feeling so stuck all the time and I'm so depressed right now over all this. I also hate seeing my husband completely depressed over all this too. Last night he was a mess.