The Venting Thread
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I just started a new birth control (Jolessa? or something)
and it is making me pretty emotional.
I am reading this thread and crying. There are some awesome people in this thread who deserve to live in homes made of gumdrops and be happy all the time and have jobs they love and friends/s.os who appreciate and love them and want to have sex with them all the time
((HUGS ALL AROUND))
CRYING AND EATING
and it is making me pretty emotional.
I am reading this thread and crying. There are some awesome people in this thread who deserve to live in homes made of gumdrops and be happy all the time and have jobs they love and friends/s.os who appreciate and love them and want to have sex with them all the time
((HUGS ALL AROUND))
CRYING AND EATING
You know what. F**k it.
I'm sick of having to wear my boyfriend's clothes exclusively because I can't afford to buy my own, and when I can, I panic too much to find the correct size. It's ridiculous that I still start to dissociate every time I go grocery shopping. Every time I make a meal. Every time I try to exercise. ENOUGH ALREADY. I can't stand my weight, I can't stand looking in the mirror. I'm so frustrated that I keep trying to no avail. I'm sick of these f**king thoughts in my head.
I hate my mother, I hate my brother, and I hate living here. I hate this house, I hate this town, I hate being stuck. I hate being unsuccessful.
I hate that my mother is a drunk, abusive bitch. I hate that woman so much.
I hate not having regular income. I hate that my savings account is almost empty.
I'm getting the hell out of here in the next six months. I don't care what it takes. I'm going to fix my life and move on.
/mess
I'm sick of having to wear my boyfriend's clothes exclusively because I can't afford to buy my own, and when I can, I panic too much to find the correct size. It's ridiculous that I still start to dissociate every time I go grocery shopping. Every time I make a meal. Every time I try to exercise. ENOUGH ALREADY. I can't stand my weight, I can't stand looking in the mirror. I'm so frustrated that I keep trying to no avail. I'm sick of these f**king thoughts in my head.
I hate my mother, I hate my brother, and I hate living here. I hate this house, I hate this town, I hate being stuck. I hate being unsuccessful.
I hate that my mother is a drunk, abusive bitch. I hate that woman so much.
I hate not having regular income. I hate that my savings account is almost empty.
I'm getting the hell out of here in the next six months. I don't care what it takes. I'm going to fix my life and move on.
/mess
I want to quit my job... 
So unhappy with some stuff related to my job, but wont go into detail here only because it is my job. I'm frustrated though and I think I need to just have a sit down with my boss and go over my frustrations.
In all honesty though I think I'm going to have to start looking for another job soonish because we really could use a higher income and I really need to try to find something with health benefits.
So unhappy with some stuff related to my job, but wont go into detail here only because it is my job. I'm frustrated though and I think I need to just have a sit down with my boss and go over my frustrations.
In all honesty though I think I'm going to have to start looking for another job soonish because we really could use a higher income and I really need to try to find something with health benefits.
I need to make 12 DVDs by Friday. I just finsihed the video today, and I have been waiting over an hour for the first one to finish burning. my schedule has been soooo hectic and busy that the only good time for me to do this is really late at night.
Nooooooooooooooooo.... WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?
my schedule has been soooo hectic and busy that the only good time for me to do this is really late at night. Nooooooooooooooooo.... WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?
My oh snores when he sleeps on his back, which also is his fave position to sleep.
I RAGE ****ing hate snoring like I would rather be branded with a branding iron then listen to someone snore. But he gets pissed when I shove him because he wakes me up. :wall:
Plus he has this mouth breathing problem, on top that he crowds the bed ... Argh :wall: & I hate being crowded when I sleep, I try to move away from him but he keeps crowding til I finally shove him awake & tell him to get off. I hate sleep cuddling, I want my own space when I sleep!!!!!
I RAGE ****ing hate snoring like I would rather be branded with a branding iron then listen to someone snore. But he gets pissed when I shove him because he wakes me up. :wall:
Plus he has this mouth breathing problem, on top that he crowds the bed ... Argh :wall: & I hate being crowded when I sleep, I try to move away from him but he keeps crowding til I finally shove him awake & tell him to get off. I hate sleep cuddling, I want my own space when I sleep!!!!!
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There's a police standoff just down the road from my house. They tried to serve a warrant about seven hours ago, and apparently he got his gun. Not unheard of in backwoods Alaska, but not what I want happening when my boyfriend is about to leave to work his night shift.
But I have my dog with a big bark and the shotgun is loaded, so... I'll still sleep? Just hope it resolves peacefully and SOON. Poor Troopers standing all day in the rain.
But I have my dog with a big bark and the shotgun is loaded, so... I'll still sleep? Just hope it resolves peacefully and SOON. Poor Troopers standing all day in the rain.
Really feeling self conscious about getting dressed and going outside today.
I've been commented on the fact that I'm overweight twice in one week. You read that right.
Last weekend at my lure coursing trial I was chatting with one of the ladies there while we were watching some of the dogs run. Out of the blue she says "so do you always have trouble finding pants that fit you right?" I was a bit taken back so my response was "huh?" To which she added "have you always been a bit heavy in the middle?" What the hell???? I didn't know what to say. I haven't always been overweight. Hell I used to run a lot when I was younger and was pretty darn fit.
Then last night my parents took me out to eat. I got up to go to the bathroom and one of the hostess girls stopped me because she wanted to see my tattoos. Then she smiles and says "wow your tattoos look amazing and you pull them off SO well especially considering how overweight you are."
I ended up boxing up most of my meal because that really bothered me. I struggle with my weight bad. I'm not overweight to the extreme, but I'm medically considered obese and have a tough time losing it. I may lose 20lbs but I can't seem to get past that 20lb mark even when I try hard.
I've been commented on the fact that I'm overweight twice in one week. You read that right.
Last weekend at my lure coursing trial I was chatting with one of the ladies there while we were watching some of the dogs run. Out of the blue she says "so do you always have trouble finding pants that fit you right?" I was a bit taken back so my response was "huh?" To which she added "have you always been a bit heavy in the middle?" What the hell???? I didn't know what to say. I haven't always been overweight. Hell I used to run a lot when I was younger and was pretty darn fit.
Then last night my parents took me out to eat. I got up to go to the bathroom and one of the hostess girls stopped me because she wanted to see my tattoos. Then she smiles and says "wow your tattoos look amazing and you pull them off SO well especially considering how overweight you are."
I ended up boxing up most of my meal because that really bothered me. I struggle with my weight bad. I'm not overweight to the extreme, but I'm medically considered obese and have a tough time losing it. I may lose 20lbs but I can't seem to get past that 20lb mark even when I try hard.
Having had to do this in years past, I now respond to people that make snide comments that I can fix my weight, but they can't fix stupid!
(((hugs))) I'm in the same boat, I'm considered obese (or whatever the next one up is), and I can't get past this same constant weight I've been maintaining. You'd think working 9 hour days working with dogs and cleaning kennels I'd have lost something, but all I've done is tone random ****.
(((hugs))) I'm in the same boat, I'm considered obese (or whatever the next one up is), and I can't get past this same constant weight I've been maintaining. You'd think working 9 hour days working with dogs and cleaning kennels I'd have lost something, but all I've done is tone random ****.
