My Big Bear died in my arms this afternoon. This is the first time I've lost a dog and it was for all the wrong reasons. I loved him, I tried so hard to help him, and I failed miserably. I'm sorry, Mike. I'm sorry I couldn't figure out a way to make you happy and make you trust like you should have. I wish more than anything that I could snuggle up with you right now. This hurts so much more than I thought it would.