May your finally have peace

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  1. Charliesmommy

    Charliesmommy I run with scissors

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    How many times since I met you have I just sat and wondered.......did I do the right thing? How many times did I see you in pain and think of your brothers and sisters, and of all the puppies who are brought into this world in the same condition as you were. Or worse. How many times did I cry, or toss and turn all night, or wring my hands.....waiting for you to get better?

    How many times did you lick my face? Or jump on my clean clothes with your muddy paws? Or bring me your ball? Or wiggle your wet nose up under my hand? How many times did I awaken to find you staring into my face, just waiting for me to wake up and rub your belly or scratch your ears? How many times did you just sit by me, chin on my knee, staring up at me with your big brown eyes, waiting for just one word or just one pat, which would make your body quiver with happiness?

    I can’t help but think back to the crazy puppy that ate my shoes, my carpet and my leather chair. Oh, how angry I was. And the day that you ran headlong into the fence, running from a little pekingnese! You were such a funny little guy.

    But you grew so fast! Your silly ears pointing this way and that, and finally standing up and you looked so proud. You’d come to my office and sleep under my desk. But then you got too big to fit, so you’d lie in my doorway.

    And the first time you caught a frisbee! Your tail wagged so hard your whole body bounced and you ran to me and I could hear you saying, “I did good, mommy, didn’t I?†and I laughed and laughed.

    In no time at all you were far too big to lie in my lap. But you did it anyway, stretching your body across my legs and stretching your neck as far as you could so as to reach my shoulder and lay your head. And I let you. I let all 90 pounds of you.

    You took up most of the queen size bed, nosing me out of your way so you could get comfortable, or just lying half on top of me. Oh, you weren’t a bit happy when we threatened to make you sleep on the floor. So you quickly learned to curl up in a ball, or stretch out long on my side, squishing me between you and Rob.

    And how you loved your girls! Running and chasing them for hours around the shed, down through the yard, around the tree, and back again. No matter how tired you got, when one of them yelled your name and ran, you were right behind them, bouncing, tail going crazy. You would have fought to the death to protect them, and you almost did.

    I glance at the calendar and it stuns me to see that we have only been together for two short years. Your soul has been part of mine for my whole life, just waiting for you to be born and come to me. And you did - just when I needed you.

    Your courage and your love have changed me and made me stronger. Your life had purpose, and together we did what we needed to do to help just a few of the others like you. 67 of them, Charlie. We saved 67 of them. Your life, your pain, your story.......it saved 67 other animals.

    And now I see what has happened to you......I see this thing that changed who you are.....made you into something that you’re not.....and frightened this big strong dog so badly........

    ........and I can only find one way to make it stop.



    So one last time you nudged that wet nose up under my hand. And I rubbed your belly. And I drowned in the love in your eyes, as they closed. And now there is no more pain, my sweet boy, and you never have to be frightened again.

    You were my best friend. You were my hero. My heart is shattered. And I will never be the same.


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  2. Renee750il

    Renee750il Felurian

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    No, Kim dear, you will never be the same. You will be better for having shared those short years with Charlie.

    And so will we.
     
  3. iwantmypup

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    rest in peace Charlie boy...
    I am so sorry for your loss kim... *big hugs*
     
  4. smkie

    smkie pointer/labrador/terrier Staff Member

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    TEars.

    RIP Charlie

    (((((HUGS))))))) KIM

    THis a a beautiful tribute you have written.


    There are no words i can write that would make any part of this better. I am just so terribly sorry for your loss.
     
  5. Barb04

    Barb04 Love my pets Staff Member

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    Charlie is at peace now. I'm in tears also. Know how much love you did give to each other; that will always be in your heart and memories forever.
     
  6. Baxter'smybaby

    Baxter'smybaby swimming upstream

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    Charlie knows he did good Kim--we all know he did good! His job here is done--now he can be at peace.
     
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    Rest peaceful dear Charlie............
     
  8. Dekka

    Dekka Just try me..

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    That was beautiful. My heart aches for your loss.
     
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    A wonderful tribute to a wonderful , beautiful dog Kim . He was sent to you for a reason . Carry on his cause ! Bless you , and Bless Charlie at the Rainbow Bridge . ((( Hugs )))
     
  10. Zoom

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    Kim, words can't express how sorry I am for the both of you. :(

    RIP Charlie.
     
  11. That is a beautiful tribute. Along with my sadness, I could also feel the joy he brought you during his life.

    My tears fall right along with yours.

    Go well, Charlie.
     
  12. Renee750il

    Renee750il Felurian

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    Found something Scarlette (Love4Pits) posted a long time ago:

     
  13. chazhound

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    RIP Charlie....

    Chazhound
     
  14. dr2little

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    My heart breaks for you Kim and like everyone here, I'm crying along with you. RIP sweet guy... I'm so sorry Kim..

    Renee - that was so beautiful..
     
  15. Doberluv

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    That poem is beautiful and it helps comfort us to realize that our dogs are with us in memory. They may not be physically with us anymore. But in a different way, they are. My heart breaks for you Kim. Time will heal and your memories will keep Charlie with you. Your tribute to Charlie is lovely. I bet it helps to write these things. I know it did help me to write my emotions down.

    RIP dear boy.
     
  16. bubbatd

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    That got me crying again ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
     
  17. Fran27

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    I'm crying too :(

    RIP Charlie...
     
  18. sparks19

    sparks19 I'd rather be at Disney

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    I'm crying too

    I am so so so sorry for your loss.

    Be at peace Charlie
     
  19. youbetcha1018

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    Let's just accept the fact that some things pass away.I sympathize with your loss.
     

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