I'm really having a hard time with this lately and I need some Chazzer words I am not happy at all where I am, I am hanging out with the wrong crowd of people again (I have for 5 years...stopped for about a year), got involved in a relationship with one of these people and I just feel so...STUCK. If I could just wipe them completely out of my life I would, but I can't. I live in a small town so changing my phone number and deleting my Facebook wouldn't do me any good. And I can't move. If I could I honestly would. I want to change my life again. Even when I first got clean, I didn't just stop and take a minute to do ME. Now that's what I really need to do but I just feel so bad...these people are my friends and I do like them for who they are, they're just making bad choices and decisions and I really want to remove myself from all of this crap and drama but I can't seem to bring myself to do it... even though I feel myself slipping and I'm really screwing myself. I find it so hard to just say, "I need time, leave me alone," even though that's what I need to do, I try to do it and they just make me feel SOO bad. "Don't leave me, I hate the bullshit and the drama, too, I wanna change, too.." but I know if I let someone take a different road with me, it's only going to lead to disappointment. I don't want to depend on anyone because I know they're not really gonna do it in the end. I feel like I have a hundred little strings yanking me in different directions and in order to one I have to cut them all - which leads me to, how will I stand on my own?