We are so crap on money that our Internet and phone just got cut off, the dogs have to eat Purina, and I don't know whether or not we are going to make rent. We have to have $500 on Saturday, and we have no money. Josh gets a check Saturday... But I know it won't be that much. So he may have to get a forward on his next check... Which puts us out another two weeks for money.. With us owing $400 to the Internet company, and a payment on my camera coming up. My car has an oil leak, we still owe the vet money for Penny's emergency spay, and the clutch on Josh's truck is going out. Josh told me the other night, after being a robot for 7 months and me screaming and crying to finally make him break down, that he's not "IN love" with me all the time anymore, and that he just feels lost and depressed in our relationship. He said he loves me and cares about me more than anything in the world, but sometimes he just doesn't feel in it anymore like he used to be. With money stress and me being a ball of absolute depression and negativity and bedridden sorrow, I don't blame him for feeling dead in our relationship. And I go on the 14th to found out how many weeks pregnant I am.... With all this going on.... And I can't find a job to save my life. I am sitting on my counter, with my iPad in my kitchen window, stealing the neighbors Internet to post this and do job applications. My life really, really, really sucks right now.