I never thought I'd see...

[StephyMei1112]

My dad crying like he was tonight. I am currently stricken down by a head cold/viral thingy and was sleeping on the downstairs sofa - I woke up parched and headed to the kitchen for tea. Dad was at the table, sitting alone, just bawling....

He's always been the very strong, silent type - even in the midst of devastational chaos he's never really lost it. Seeing him like that was just...shocking. I know, I know - we're all human and vulnerable, but still....it made me feel even more hopeless about our situation and everything else.

 

[~Tucker&Me~]

I'm not sure what the situation is but I hope everything is ok *hug* And if you need anything let me know, I am technically a neighbour after all...

 

[StephyMei1112]

(hugs) Thanks alot.

Well...recently things have been difficult to say the least. My best friend (perhaps more than that...) killed herself, we may be facing foreclosure of our home, my grandfather died this past friday, and generally things are a mess. Ugh, life is fun, so much fun....

 

[Romy]

It's really disconcerting. The only time I ever saw my dad cry he was crying like that too. It was because an old man had pulled out in front of him and didn't survive the accident.

There's so much on your plate right now. I'm so sorry you and your family are having to handle all this at once. It's too much, but you're a strong woman and you'll survive it. Katalin is there with you. (((hugs)))

 

[LindaJD]

I'm sorry your family is going through a bad time right now.

 

[StephyMei1112]

My dad is a gruff, arrogant, self righteous, logical Asian man - he'd be a cross between a Klingon and a Vulcan in Star Trek. He doesn't cry or lose it, he just doesn't. The sky could be falling and he would still be as solid as a brick wall. Seeing him at a weak point was just....ugh, I know we're all human and have tender spots and that this is a really rough point - but it was disheartening and discouraging to say the least. I didn't approach him or talk to him about it. Haven't seen him again tonight actually....

Oh well, you know what they say about life - she's a bitch pretty much all of the time. To some people more than others it seems sometimes....

 

[sparks19]

I'm so sorry for all you are dealing with.

I know what you mean though. Seeing my dad cry was one of the hardest things to see. I was a teenager at the time and he started spending a lot of time at my house with my mom and he wanted to get back together and my mom told him that she didn't want to get back together with him (I was SO angry with her at the time but now I completely understand why she didn't want to go down that path with him again) and my dad went into a 48 hour depression basically. He basically just kept a bottle of booze at his side, didn't sleep (unless he just passed out from the booze), didn't eat and I couldn't leave his side. He was just drunk and crying non stop for two days (maybe three) and then he just snapped out of it and went on with life like nothing happened. It was hard for me to see that.

 

[JoLeigh]

Oh Stephy I am so sorry ~~~Hugs~~~

 

[StephyMei1112]

Sparks,

I'm so sorry you had to go through that - sounds just awful. I have a good feeling that my parents are on the brink of divorce, or at least a separation - they pretty much live separate lives now as it is. They're both working all the time and only see each other on the odd occasion at home - they don't even sleep in the same room. I'm more attached to dad than to mom though, and both of them have pretty much come to terms with their situation and the reality of everything. But it's mostly other issues that are mainly eating at us now...

I'm just SO exhausted. Like no kidding, I could keel over at any minute now. The dog keeps me going - if it wasn't for her....I don't know. Strangely enough a relative of mine suggested having a child ASAP - as it would "ease my pain". No, no, and hell to the no - I don't wanna even go there or get into that. A child doesn't deserve to be brought into the mess that is my life right now nor a mother as incompetent, unready, or irresponsible as myself.

I'm *so* tired....