Lately, I have been thinking of seeing a therapist or counselor. I have been lugging a few things around with me... For one, I have never really spoken with anyone about the death of my grandfather. When he passed, my mom called me early in the morning and told me... After that I went back to bed, then went to work and that was mostly it. There never was much room to speak about it with my parents as my dad is a very "he was old and it's natural" type of person, so I have been there for my mom, bring the support for her. My husband has been there for me or would be, but it's hard for me to let myself open up in that matter. If there is something that reminds me of him, I cry to myself if I'm in a situation where I can, and then just go on with it. I have never had someone so close to me die and I don't know if that's what it is supposed to be like? It just feels like I never dealt with it. Now my grandma is in the hospital and has been for awhile... And I feel everything build up. I have had a very very close relationship with my omi and opi... And I feel so riddled with guilt for leaving them in the first place. I always promised them I would take care of them, and I haven't held my promise. Has anyone ever been to a grief counselor or therapist? If so, how do you find one you feel comfortable with? I'm baking cookies tomorrow, and if you read through this, I'll save one for you.