So today I got the "thanks but no" rejection letter from the place I interviewed a few weeks back... which I pretty much knew was coming but I just... had that little bit of hope still I couldn't let go of until I knew for sure. The guy was so nice during my interview and he was really nice in my rejection letter, saying he thought my stuff was excellent and he had no doubt I would find a job in the industry soon. But that doesn't feel very good when I've been applying for... two years now? and still can't get a job. I was thrilled to even get an interview, usually I don't even get those. =< I was one of eight people from about 30 applications he got that he called for the first round of interviews, so again, I suppose it should feel good, but it doesn't. Rejection is still rejection... even second place isn't winning. He's keeping my stuff on file if they have any future openings which he said might be sooner than I might think, because they are expanding right now. So I guess that's always a positive. I don't know. I haven't cried over getting a rejection letter in a long time and this one made me cry. I thought I was the right fit, he seemed to like me and my stuff, and I thought the timing was perfect. I thought this was it. but it's not. and I'm just devastated and tired of applying and applying and applying and I'm getting nowhere. I'm not even talking in my field, I'm talking anything and everything I've applied to. I just don't even know. It feels like it's never going to happen. I'm going to be stuck with my soul being sucked out of me every day at the radio station for the rest of my life... in a few years my traffic manager will retire and they will offer me the job because I'm very good at what I do and I will be able to easily take her place, and I will work there until *I* retire, and I will be miserable every day for the rest of my working life, and I will never be paid very much for it either. That is what I see when I look ahead of me. And it looks rotten.