So I hesitate to even bring it up but I tried talking to RL people and they don't get it so much. I've been starting to have panic attacks again. 3 this week alone... It probably started about a month ago. I have not had them in over 4 years prior to this last month.
It's the same as it was...things I forgot to do or thought I did wrong are suddenly the end of the world. I'll make myself hyperventilate and puke. I can't sleep, I'm shaking too bad.
It really took till last night when I realized how bad it is right now. In the last week I've gone from worrying about 1 thing being the end of my life as I know it to another thing to another thing. All doom and gloom. Once the thing passes I realize I was worrying about NOTHING but at the time I can't shake it and it is all consuming.
I hate it and I don't know what the best plan is. I am trying to logically tell myself it is OK. I am making up all the things to worry about. The only person noticing these things is me. I am really really hard on myself and all my perceived 'failures'. In actuality those failures are typically nothing or very minor or just plain mistakes. I should be ok with making mistakes but I'm not for some reason.
I know some of you have anxiety as well and was wondering how you deal with it? My sister does too, we are a lot alike. I just was so happy being out of this kind of a place and feeling trapped and anxious at every turn. I don't know how to snap myself out of it again.
It's the same as it was...things I forgot to do or thought I did wrong are suddenly the end of the world. I'll make myself hyperventilate and puke. I can't sleep, I'm shaking too bad.
It really took till last night when I realized how bad it is right now. In the last week I've gone from worrying about 1 thing being the end of my life as I know it to another thing to another thing. All doom and gloom. Once the thing passes I realize I was worrying about NOTHING but at the time I can't shake it and it is all consuming.
I hate it and I don't know what the best plan is. I am trying to logically tell myself it is OK. I am making up all the things to worry about. The only person noticing these things is me. I am really really hard on myself and all my perceived 'failures'. In actuality those failures are typically nothing or very minor or just plain mistakes. I should be ok with making mistakes but I'm not for some reason.
I know some of you have anxiety as well and was wondering how you deal with it? My sister does too, we are a lot alike. I just was so happy being out of this kind of a place and feeling trapped and anxious at every turn. I don't know how to snap myself out of it again.