The Venting Thread

Oh my god, ALL OF THIS. The highways (one in particular) were horrifyingly bad. I drive a Honda Fit which is a piece of **** in the snow anyway because it's so tiny and light weight, so the combination of my car + their sand "solution" + other people driving in terrifying ways made my day so stressful that I'm exhausted tonight despite having a super easy day of work.

Look guy, there's a lot of space between me and the car ahead of me for a REASON. That reason is that I can't ****ing stop. If you cut in front of me, there is a very good chance I'm going to rear end you because you left me with NO braking room!

My very related vent is that I need a new car. I love my Fit, but I feel extremely unsafe in it every winter. Next year will be the year of the Big Car.

Right? 25 and 225 were hellish. Even my truck slid. I can't imagine how you're doing in a Fit. Do you have snow tires on it yet?

To the second bit - AGREED. It was crazy. People were driving fast without leaving safe stopping distances today. There's absolutely nowhere I'm in enough of a hurry to go to that I'll risk wrecking my truck. It's a POS Ford from the 90s, and if I wreck it, I die. Surprisingly, I'm just not that excited about dying.

Talk to Zoom about a Subaru. Not today or tomorrow, but maybe after this storm. I liked how my truck drove in the snow, but nothing compares with a Subie. Her XT on all-seasons did better than other AWD cars with snow tires.

It is all kinds of this:



I ended up going to the gym anyway. Right before I left work I got word that a friend's dad was going into the hospital. So I needed a good workout to keep my mind off worrying about her and her dad. It was perhaps a bit less explosive than normal since I've hardly eaten at all for four or five days, but felt good, I didn't cough even once, and I felt even better when I was done. Also RAVENOUS. I came home and ate, like really ate, for the first time since almost a week ago.
maybe if I don't die I'll actually be able to run the 5K on Saturday. Except I think it's going to be like 10 degrees and snowing in which case I will be like >=| and not be able to breathe if I try to run.

People who feel the need to input on how I deal with my breakup.
We broke up. No it didn't end badly. No I don't hate him.
But I don't see why deleting him on facebook and deleting his number makes me a bad person!
I just don't want to see his stuff all over my newsfeed or be tempted to call him! "Oh but what if something happens to him? What if he gets shot" WELL THEN I TRUST SOMEONE WILL TELL ME SINCE YOU ARE ALL SO INVOLVED IN HIS AFFAIRS

I am healing. I am independent by nature and I have friends and hobbies and merlin and a great family.. which helps a lot. and to a lot of people I know that makes it all seem like I'm totally fine but I'm not. It hurts. Some days more than others and some days not at all but CLEAN BREAKS WORK FOR ME. I'm just not ready to be his friend.

Ugh.

Isn't that the best?

Gah, I am so unbelievably stressed out. My anxiety has been coming back with a vengance and I'm starting to get all the things that come along with it like nightmares, waking up scared and not being able to sleep, paranoid people are judging me constantly, which makes my anxiety worse. It being finals week doesn't help! I was so far ahead in all my classes and than within the last week it all spiraled out of control and now I'm out of my mind trying to figure out what's due and what I've missed and I may have missed the final test in my statics class because I overslept.

Than there's my apartment. I got dripped on again this morning. Last year he roof was dripping where it connects with one of the walls and the repair guy came in said my fan in my bathroom wasn't running and that's probably what it was. Couldn't do much about it as it was turning to summer by the time I said anything and the dripping had stopped.

So now it's back. I'm pretty sure it's the ice getting in cracks in the roof or something but its dripping all over my bed. My room is so small there's only so much I can do to get my bed out of the way. >_<

To make it worse, it's 7F outside and freezing air is coming in like mad through where the floorboard and walls meet. It's mainly by the heater (heater is on the wall right above the ground) so there's no point in turning the heater on because I'm throwing money out the window fighting a loosing battle.

My bf's job has cut his hours drastically and we are sinking financially which doesn't help. And of course I find out my mother has been at stage 4 renal failure for a while now and no one bothered to tell me. The doctors are hopeful to hold off end stage renal failure if she goes back on her diet, but just hearing she's that far gone at barely over 40 makes me scared.

I just feel like everything is piling on at once and I don't know if I can take this anymore. I really need something good to happen.

It's 35F in my room. I'm cold. Is winter over yet?

Truck wont start. I jumped it twice, with two different vehicles. It absolutely will not start. It shut both of them off.

I have no other vehicle to get me to work.

A horrible cold front moved through today ... Ok the north can keep its cold **** ... I don't want it ... That's why I live down here so I don't have to deal with winter weather and all the **** that comes with it :wall:.

Anxieters.

Lots of them.

Middie wont stop farting.

My truck is an asshole. Not going in to work today means I'll be working my day off next week. So I'm just going to try to enjoy the afternoon.

For those of you deeply invested in my toe saga, Dr. Cousin found a fracture (no biggie, I've broken toes before) and a "massive" hematoma under the nail, which he drained. He was so impressed by it that he called several other Dr's in to see it.

I was a big girl and held still for the procedure, even if I did drop an F bomb when he injected the lidocaine. (IT BURNED!!!)

Can't. Breathe.

2 HOUR commute home. Ugh.

-42C windchill

No... Just. No.

My work should have let everyone out earlier. It was a nightmare driving in the ice with every single person trying to evacuate downtown.

I was hoping to take Outlaw up to local Schutzhund club this weekend but alas no such luck

I am one of very few volunteers to make the set, props etc for my daughter's second grade musical. Everyone else is making one thing....guess who's making the rest?

Also I REALLY wanted to make Gracie a pair of doggie pj's to wear in our Christmas cards..(because I can't find any big enough for her) and now I probably won't have time.

I hate being cold. It is 25 degrees. I live in Arizona so I won't have to put up with 25 degree temps. I'm cranky and freezing and I can barely feel my hands. *grump*

Awkward date. Just .. so awkward.