I think too much. I need to learn to just jump in and try things and not be afraid of failing. Especially since, if I am given the time and opportunity, I likely won't fail.
I declined a job offer this morning, because there were not enough positive differences between it and my current job. I stewed about it the entire weekend, but ultimately decided that declining was the best decision for me. Then, this afternoon, my uncle's long time girlfriend offered to give me a position in the office she manages. My head is saying I should take it, even though I'm not a big fan that it includes every Saturday, but I can't really be that picky. It's hard to find a Mon-Fri job, especially with limited experience. It pays way better than where I am now, more hours, is still far from home but I like the location... I am just scared to work for family. And not because I'll cause an issue, but because it's a brand new experience for me and I am worried she'll think I'm stupid if I don't catch on amazingly quickly lol. Which is stupid, cause I know given the chance and with training, I will learn and I'll be a great, reliable employee. But it seems weird to work for family. And at the same time, I think it's a fantastic opportunity for me and that it would not be smart to turn it down.
I wish I didn't over think everything. I've been trying hard not to, but it's who I am. I worry too much. And I hate the feeling of starting a new job and knowing nothing and feeling totally lost and out of my element... but then I remember that I felt like that about every job I've had so far, and it always comes together and I get comfortable and confident in what I am doing.