The Venting Thread

Really feeling self conscious about getting dressed and going outside today.

I've been commented on the fact that I'm overweight twice in one week. You read that right.

Last weekend at my lure coursing trial I was chatting with one of the ladies there while we were watching some of the dogs run. Out of the blue she says "so do you always have trouble finding pants that fit you right?" I was a bit taken back so my response was "huh?" To which she added "have you always been a bit heavy in the middle?" What the hell???? I didn't know what to say. I haven't always been overweight. Hell I used to run a lot when I was younger and was pretty darn fit.

Then last night my parents took me out to eat. I got up to go to the bathroom and one of the hostess girls stopped me because she wanted to see my tattoos. Then she smiles and says "wow your tattoos look amazing and you pull them off SO well especially considering how overweight you are."

I ended up boxing up most of my meal because that really bothered me. I struggle with my weight bad. I'm not overweight to the extreme, but I'm medically considered obese and have a tough time losing it. I may lose 20lbs but I can't seem to get past that 20lb mark even when I try hard.

Great start to my morning, I got rear-ended by a girl who was not paying attention to all the "bridge is closed, expect delays" "stopped traffic ahead" signs and was going about 40 mph before slamming on her breaks and hitting my stopped car. wtf.

Ugh. My roommate is being a total ass to our foster dog. He said it would be fine. He allowed me to get her. And now he is just being a total dick to her.

NO you can't spray her with a spray bottle every time she whines. It works because you're scaring the **** out of her. If I sprayed you with a spray bottle every time you opened your mouth, you'd shut up pretty quickly to.

She KNOWS you don't like her. Stop saying it. She is NOT that bad. It's been two days. TWO DAYS. Christ, give her a few days to figure everything out.

Honestly, I don't know that I'll foster after her. I enjoy it and it makes me feel like a productive member of my community but if my roommate can't stop being a total douche to our fosters, I don't think I can continue.

It's not her fault. And every time he's mean to her I just see her as a toddler and it reaffirms why I don't want children with this person.

It's not like Gwen was easy when we first got her. She destroyed a whole bathroom before we got anywhere with her behavior issues.

I don't understand how he can be empathic towards someone who has messed up their own life beyond repair, but be a dick to this poor dog. Maybe she's not messed up enough.

Ugh.

My co-worker asked me if he could help and I said only if he had access to a loaded gun.
He said even if he did have access to one he wouldn't let me have it.

He never lets me have ANY fun.

I'm not sure if you're against medicine for depression but Wal Mart has a $4 plan that several depression meds are on. Or $10 ones as well. Still have to go to a doctor but... It doesn't have to be expensive.

If you don't want to do that, ignore me.

I have never heard of adults being so rude.... I'm extremely nonconfrontational, but I'd have had a hard time biting my tongue in either occasion. And I'd likely have reported the latter to her manager. If she went up to a customer and said "wow, amazing that your tattoos/piercings look so good when your face is so hideous", it would not be considered acceptable. Other physical appearances should be no different.
I cannot stand when people have no flters as to what is and is not appropriate to say, as if they never grew out of toddlerhood.

My co-worker asked me if he could help and I said only if he had access to a loaded gun.
He said even if he did have access to one he wouldn't let me have it.

He never lets me have ANY fun.