I'm miserable for all the wrong reasons

Okay. I had to giggle at that.

A little hemp makes everything better :rofl1:

I would say you should share the company/plan info with everyone! (Or at least the people.in your area who could get it too) that sounds like a good deal..I think straight talk is the lowest I know of here...unlimited everything is $45 a month. My son and daughter both have it.

This is an excellent post.

I realize your first concern is housing, Stephy, but that's been pretty thoroughly taken care of. Figure it out, go stay at a shelter where you will be safe. Then please, please get help. I told you in the previous thread that you need to seek mental health first because you are in a more dangerous place - mentally - than ever before. I stand by it. Seek professional help. Get on medication if you need it. Find someone you can talk to. This is what will help you the most right now, regardless of whatever else is happening in your life.

x1000.

I'm a little confused about how this "situation"" is being handled. I know this is the OFF TOPIC section of this forum, but why is this member even allowed to post very detailed aspect of her "work"? I know we are responsible for what we share and how much we want to share, but I think some "screening" should be done to her posts. As I've mentioned earlier, there was a post where she actually mentioned the name she is going to use when working, the hours she's working and the area where she'd be working. If this is all true, letting this post remain in public is putting this poster at a higher risk. Also, in Canada, I believe "escorts" are subjected to thorough health screening before they are allowed to "work". You cant just waltz in an escort service agency and get clients just like that. Not just for the "clients" safety but for yourself. I really should get my nose out of this biz but I cant help not to say something when I know CANADA is giving its citizen all it can to provide support and help.

JOB BANK. SHELTER. Forget about your phone for now. Worry about what really matters at the moment. FOOD. SHELTER. HEALTH. SAFETY.

In a neighborhood about 10 blocks away from here there's a sex shop right next to a bong/hemp enthusiasts store. *sighs* I'll try to love myself enough to bong n' dong on....

Now you can have that old T-Rex song in your head, Bang-a-gong

OMG! Hey!!!! Long time no see. Missed you.

Vancouverite here.

I recognize that times can be tough and Stephy has my deepest sympathies for all the sh*t she has gone through recently. That would take a toll on anyone. Having said that though... There are lots of jobs here if you look into retail and fast food. The trick is to print out 30-50 copies of your resume and hand them out to all the big chain fast-food places, walmarts, movie theatres, retail stores, grocery stores, etc. Retail in particular is hiring like crazy to gear up for the holiday season. There also shouldn't be any focus on paying a housing bill because Vancouver has lots of options for emergency and temporary housing. Basically, all Stephy should be focusing on is getting herself checked into a housing facility, seeking mental health assistance, and finding a job. A job will help her save and eventually move out to be independent again.

A song that pops into my head fits this situation pretty well as I see it...

Indeed, I have to want to help myself in the first place though. You see, I'm kinda not wanting to go on with life at the moment and I'm really having to force myself at this point, when the fact of simply existing becomes a strained chore - things are gonna be challenging for sure....

從前曾幻想 天天向上勇敢自強
可中獎 然而誰知道 一想你 忘記堅強

"From daydreams to being strong everyday, who knew, once I remember you, that I forget all my strength..."

This thread makes me cry... Stephy, you are way too smart, awesome and beautiful to be selling your body. I know you're getting numb to it right now - that's because, sadly, you don't care about yourself. And having sex for money is only going to make that worse, lead down an endless path of self loathing, depression, drugs, and pain. You deserve so much better!!! You're gorgeous. If you must work in the industry, at least get into exotic dancing or porn. Something safe an d re gulated. you could die out there, messing with people who don't care about you at all. Even if you don't get physically hurt... no amount of money is worth selling your soul. I know you don't feel great right now but it gets better. You need to do what is best for you! Prostituting is not it. Seriously, you're way too good for that.

I wish you lived nearby. I would love to help out you & Katalin.

Another for putting you and kat up if you where closer. Im not going to judge because I dont care, Ive had friends do this and worse.

If you ever need someone to talk to or just listen to you, PM me for my number.

Missed you, too!!! How are you doing?

Great. Loads of news my side. PM me your facebook details, I will add you.

Is it possible to check back in to the facility you were at? Please do.

Ya, I don't think so. What facility do you mean? I was discharged out of hospital and I took myself out of the Covenant house whatever thing - it was awful. I'm not on the streets now - I'm in a studio with a roommate - quite happy here.

Haven't seen you in abit! hope all is well with you, your boyfriend and baby =)

It was one night. It's in the past - I am moving on. I'm not going to pursue a career down that road. Don't think my soul is worth much either - it's been eaten up a long time ago.

Dying? Just dying it and of itself would be fine with me. Suffering I can't stand.

I wouldn't accept it - you have a baby on the way and a family to raise and things of your own to do. Take care of all of those and don't be burdened by others.

I think she meant the hospital. From what you're writing here, I think you should go back to the hospital. Or any hospital. Your own mental health is not conducive to finding a job at this time, or for caring for yourself. That's regardless of whether anything here regarding actual actions is true or false. That doesn't matter. What's apparent is that you NEED mental help. Don't let yourself talk you out of it. Just go. If they refuse to admit you, just tell them you are a danger to yourself or are going to kill yourself. Even if you're not going to kill yourself, it'll get you in the door so you can get the care you need.

You can always go back to the hospital. Always. If you tell them what you are writing here, the hopelessness etc, they will admit.

In a different program, different hospital, different rehab - maybe. But in the same place I just came from - hell to the no. I just want to move on.... motivation/drive are the issues now.

Then I urge you to find a different hospital. Surely your area doesn't have just ONE hospital? I live in a relatively small town and we have at least 5, and one of them is exclusively for psychiatric conditions.