Screwing up at work

Gah. I f*cked up at work. Nothing unfixable, but kinda the thing that everyone will know about. I am so mad at myself. I can't believe I did this. It's not even something I didn't know, it's just something I oversaw when I checked it before sending it out.

To make matters worse, when I get mad at myself, really mad, I tend to cry. Which is exactly what I did. In front of the deputy director. Gah. Gah. Gah. With other people around. Everyone tried to make me feel better, but I just feel so stupid.

I want to crawl in a hole. Gah.

In my job, we mess up every day. We promote reflective practice, ie, being able to dissect your own work and learn from it for the next time you encounter it.

**** happens!!!! Crying in work is a pretty regular occurrence in my office, if you haven't bawled in front of a manager, you're not a real social worker!!

It's not so bad in the grand scheme of things, you certainly won't do it again!! One of life's lessons

for the record, yes I have also cried in front of management

What's awful too is that sometimes when I cry when I get mad, then I get mad at myself for crying. Try not to beat yourself up too much, we all make mistakes here and there. I hope you feel better and don't let this make you lose confidence in yourself. Mistakes are a fact of life and it is a good sign that you care enough to care about making that mistake.

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Screwing up is hard, but I can handle that....it happens to everyone.

Crying at work, in front of higher ups especially, is something I can't take. I've done it of course, but it's the WORST FEELING.
Just remember you try your best and that's good enough. This too shall pass.

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I'm an angry crier as well. It sucks big time.

Don't feel too awful if you can help it. Everyone screws up at some point. I will tell you...I f***** up majorly many years ago when I was a medical assistant. . . TWICE! First big boo: A lady came in for a fasting blood sugar test where she had to drink a sugar liquid, then get her blood taken and tested every hour....six times. She sat in the waiting room reading or went for a walk around the block...stuff like that all day in between getting poked and getting her blood drawn. That night, I realized I drew her blood every hour...did all that fine. But I realized, OMG! :doh: I forgot to give her the sugar drink! The whole test was for nothing....it wouldn't show how she handled sugar. I had to call her and tell her she had to come back and do it all over again. I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. I didn't tell the doctor. He wouldn't notice. And I was so lucky she was such a kindly, forgiving, patient patient. She said, "Oh that's okay. I don't mind at all...really. I'm really into this book and I don't mind sitting there again, reading." I could have said nothing and the test would have looked like she didn't have a blood sugar problem, but I wouldn't do that. That would really be wrong. So, I fessed up, at least to her, did the test right and it all worked out okay in the end.

The other mistake I made was taking a series of chest x-rays....frontal, lateral and oblique. And I realized I forgot to put the film in the thingy. OMG! She was still waiting in the exam room for the film to develop. I went back and told her the x-rays didn't turn out right, so we have to do it again. I felt so horrible...exposing her to more radiation than was necessary. Those were the two biggest, humongousest, work-related screw-ups of my life. :yikes:

I don't know if lots of people mess up that badly, but everyone messes up somehow at some point in their lives. So, hang in there. Crying is not a bad thing either. I didn't cry those times because I didn't have time to...had to correct those problems asap.

Just this past month I have had two screw up costing the company about 5000.00 . I fessed up and took the but chewing and cried also. I felt horrid also. It will pass. Huge hugs.

When I get mad at all period I cry and I hate it. ((((((((((BIG HUGS and HUGS)))))))) hope time goes by quickly and you can get it behind you. There is nothing I dislike more than than me crying in public...((((MORE HUGS))) and sneaks off to get i dunno..ice cream? I will buy. Whatcha want?

Smkie! You're back! I'm so glad everything went well.

Ah, I do the same thing, Jules. And what I said on FB is the absolute truth <3

I'll tell you something though -- sometimes the tears are not a bad thing

I worked for an attorney who was a total drama demon. EVERYTHING was a HUGE deal and he'd had enough half-assed support staffers that he'd gotten the idea that the only way to keep everyone in line and keep 'em working and not screwing up was to ride everyone's ass constantly. He yelled, he growled, he groused, he was just generally a real asshat to everyone who worked for him.

Except me.

Because I told him the first week I worked for him, after I'd seen him in action, that if he ever, EVER treated me like that I would burst into tears right there and he'd have to deal with THAT.

The thought terrified him, lol. We got along great.

So, don't be so hard on yourself, especially not for the tears.

Thank you all for the kind and encouraging words! <3

I had a good night... Went to the gym, had Chinese (yeah, about that), went to bed early, snuggled up with T and read some. Now I'm ready to call it a night and get back into it tomorrow.

I still feel like an idiot, but it'll pass. I guess.

(((HUGS))) Bogart, I hope everything will be okay at your place. Hmmm, maybe this week having a Friday the 13th has something to do with it?!

Smkie you're back! How are you?