mushroom attacked folly yesterday morning, landing us at the e-vet to get her face and the roof of her mouth fixed. they had to anesthetize her, obviously. waking up from anesthesia, she had a small seizure.
last night she had three more grand mal seizures. i took her back to the e-vet who gave her a loading dose of phenobarbital, sent her home with phenobarb pills, and let me have a dose of valium to give iv if she seizures again.
i can't deal with this. i feel really freaking awful about it, especially since i knew she'd had issues as a baby puppy, but i just cannot deal. i thought i could and i was wrong, so she's going back to her breeder this afternoon.
i am heartbroken. she is the nicest, most outgoing, friendly puppy ever and she was going to be my flyball princess. she's a beautiful, amazing puppy and if i hadn't let mushroom eat her, she might be just fine.
but now she's drunk on seizure medication, her face hurts, and her brain is broken.
i hate this so much.
i feel like i've let her breeder down. i feel like such a jerk.
last night she had three more grand mal seizures. i took her back to the e-vet who gave her a loading dose of phenobarbital, sent her home with phenobarb pills, and let me have a dose of valium to give iv if she seizures again.
i can't deal with this. i feel really freaking awful about it, especially since i knew she'd had issues as a baby puppy, but i just cannot deal. i thought i could and i was wrong, so she's going back to her breeder this afternoon.
i am heartbroken. she is the nicest, most outgoing, friendly puppy ever and she was going to be my flyball princess. she's a beautiful, amazing puppy and if i hadn't let mushroom eat her, she might be just fine.
but now she's drunk on seizure medication, her face hurts, and her brain is broken.
i hate this so much.
i feel like i've let her breeder down. i feel like such a jerk.