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After all the tests they ran and exams they did on boomer. They have diagnosed him with a brain lesion. Tj showed the vet the video on his cell phone of boomer playing in the backyard just a couple of days ago and the vet could see how much weight he lost in a two day period.

I now will have peace knowing that this was nothing that could have been prevented or treated. The vet was explaining how he probably had this lesion for sometime now but they don't always show any symptoms until it reaches the part of the brain where motor function is involved. He had lots of neurological issues that developed today.... I told tj whatever it was it was affecting his brain. The vet said that boomer didn't appear to be in any pain, but he clearly can not live in that condition.

The decision to euthanize was made. It was in the best interest of boomer. I will miss my little black stray ditch dog tj brought home that cold winter night when someone dumped him off on the side of the road to fend for himself when he was just a baby. I am filled with sadness right now. I have to grieve the loss of a great dog. The guilt I will have now will be that I missed out on spending these last few months with him. He had a good life with us and he was loved and cared for. We gave him the life his previous owners denied him. TJ held him in his arms right to the end. I think I am still in shock. Poor lola knows something is going on... the cat does too. They both have hardly left my side the past couple of hours.

I am asking that if you don't have anything nice to say.. or words of support.. please refrain from posting out of respect. I just thought I'd post this update to let those of you who have been asking me know what has happened. Thanks for all the private messages of support, I appreciate it.
 

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I just got off the phone with tj. Boomer is gone :( He said he held him close and he just slipped away in his arms. He said his passing was peaceful and that the staff at this place was very caring and compassionate. I thought my tears had dried up... but they just keep flowing. At least it's over. He is free to run and play like he always did.
 

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Nancy, I'm really sorry this happened. RIP Boomer :(
 

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Oh no. I'm so sorry Nancy. ((((((((((hugs)))))))))) Rest in peace, little guy. :(
 

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Nancy, I'm really sorry Boomer and everything you're going through. For whatever it's worth, when I read your original post, I had a feeling Boomer was going through something that wasn't caused by anyone (hope that made sense). Please don't beat yourself up for the last few months. What you're going through is out of your control.
 

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Nancy, I'm really sorry Boomer and everything you're going through. For whatever it's worth, when I read your original post, I had a feeling Boomer was going through something that wasn't caused by anyone (hope that made sense). Please don't beat yourself up for the last few months. What you're going through is out of your control.
Deep down I knew it was a brain issue because of all the neurological symptoms he developed today. It was just so fast when it happened. It must have affected his brain stem too because he was having respiratory distress.

I know I didn't do anything to cause this. I guess the guilt I am having is knowing that the last 4 or 5 months of his life were spent away from me. I wished I had been able to get a hold of my depression during that time.. but it was bigger than me. I will miss him. It's never easy when you lose a family member, my pets are my family.
 

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Don't dwell on this Nancy ..... you did your best and it was just meant to be ! Pick yourself up , dust yourself off and tend to your mate and other doggie !! You can do it !!! You've practically have breathed life into your newborns ! Do it for you !!! Your past is behind you ..look ahead !!! You have many more years than I have and I treasure every year !!! Believe me losing my home of 35 years , our business and going through bankruptcy wasn't a picnic !!! Ten years ago my life was Hell !! Sure I wanted to go into a cave , curl up and die !!! But God said " NO" !!
 

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I just don't know what to say. =< Poor Boomer. How scary for that to have crept up on you all so quickly. It sounds as though his suffering were not long though. Try to think of it less as you missing the past and more that you were there for him today. He needed you today.
HUGS Nancy. I'm sorry.
 

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Nancy, I am so terribly sorry for everything you're suffering.

If I hung on too fiercely to the guilt I had over my past animals, I'd be in a terrible way. I have had cats that went downhill so fast, it would make your head spin. One week they appear fine, then they give a hint that they might be losing weight. And in another few days, they're emaciated and their kidneys are shutting down. I totally understand how several medical conditions can cause changes very quickly. It is no way your fault and when something makes an animal lose weight that fast, it's doubtful that it is something that anyone can do anything about anyhow. At least reasonably. These things happen.

I can see how you would have regrets that you didn't spend more time with him. But these hard realizations are lessons of life. I think your new found outlook is wonderful and it sounds like you're going to pick yourself back up and get on with life. I hope you're getting some help too with your depression. It's not something to leave to chance. You know that, being a nurse. I hope you'll take the bull by the horns and do everything medically and spiritually possible to keep you going on the healthy track.

I know how hard this is now. But things will ease up.

Again, I'm so very sorry for your loss.
 

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I am so sorry for your loss, Nancy. I knew that TJ would not let your dogs get like just because. Don't blame yourself. (((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))
 

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Rip dear Boomer. I am relieved that you can be at peace with yourself now over his condition. I would try to embrace Lola and let her help lift your spirits. I am so sorry your going through all of this.
 
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So very sorry for your loss and the pain that accompanies it. You gave Boomer love and a wonderful home and life. Take comfort in that.
 

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