Dog guards owner's body

My mother attempted sucide in front of me when I was 12, and told me that if I loved her, I wouldn't call for help.

For me, personally, I won't ever view it as an unselfish act.

Yes, I feel pity, but I've been on the other side, and the resentment has never gone away.

I don't believe I even posted that on a public message board since it's information that I haven't even shared with many close friends; I guess it's the anonymous nature and the fact I'm very emotional about the subject gets me going sometimes. Sorry for the massive hijacking.

Anyway, I appreciate your opinion, corgi_love, since I don't believe there are really any right ways respond to or feel about a trauma like that...and I don't think any two reasons for suicide can be the same. I think what made it so hard on me was that I was a single child to a single mom, with no support. For me, as HARD as I try to forgive, I just haven't found the strength. I envy you that you've found that peace. Especially now that I'm a mother, god help anyone who ever inflicted that kind of pain on my children, let alone myself.

Do you people who have never felt it, know just how desperate you have to be to try and end it all? Think about it.

Please don't tell any of us that have been touched by this to "think about it." It's been done; I promise.

I'm bowing out of this discussion...